workshop today. quite fun took a few pics while doin the welding. me n jonaton is so slow. everyone finish all the welding we still doin haha. i felt proud of mineself cos aft break all of a sudden i did the butt joint rly well. finished at abt 12 plus. suxin they all so nice help me n jonaton clean up our working area. firman took mine hp to play. he took so many pics n videos of the class nia still ask me put in fb n tag everyone haha. then bused hme aft tat. tired nia nd to gt more slp things happens today. smehow in a short day time, many things change. jus hope everyone can jus pull through it n stay tgt. i noe is tough bt smetimes we jus nd to forgive n forget. i dunno abt the others bt i feel bad for keeping things so long frm ppl. now we seem to drift further frm one another. actually, i can say tat things r nt rly tat bad either. initially i didnt tell anyone too, everyone jus slowly guessed by themselves abt it n i thought u might too one day. i guess i was wrong. i shldnt keep mum abt it waiting for u to find out urself. i can understand if u r goin to ignore me in sch. there r things we cannt change, wats done cannt be undone, we jus nd to live wit it n let go if nd. i dunno, i still hope we can stay as friends aft tis incident. didnt noe wat to write abt, im feeling dazed now

闹钟铃响是一天美的开始,
电话铃声是朋友的问候,
门铃响起是亲人平安归来,
手机铃声是我虔诚的祝福与关怀.
祝愿大家生活每天都充满着喜悦. i was totally broke today, no $$ for lunch for today n tmw...luckily clara lent me 5 bucks for today n tmw. had long chats n story telling at fc today while eating. all theses talks rly set me thinking alot. is rly amazing how time flies. its been 2 yrs since all of us entered poly. can u believe it by april of nxt yr we will all graduate. we r only left wit abt a yr wit each other, studying in the same class, having lunch at fc tgt. rly love tis bunch of pals as we go through each single day tgt. we talk, we laugh, we have fun, we celebrate each others bday, we ka jiao one another, we comfort each other in sad times n etc. although there can be disagreements here n there, i truly believe tat nth is unsolveable between friends. im nt sayin tis to hint anything, jus feel like writing my thoughts down. ever wondered, can we stay like tis in 10 yrs, maybe even 20 yrs to come? will we be able to gt tgt like tis in the future aft we graduate, as we begin our individual lifes aft poly? we will definitely meet one another as we set our foot in the working society cos we r all working in the same line. bt will we become competitors where we had to compete wit one another over businesses? well if it rly happens there is no other choice too i guess.

yenru talked abt her conversation wit her friend alex where they promised to attend each other's wedding in the future. ppl say to nv make such a promise to each other cos the future cannt be predicted, so is best nt to make empty promises. however, i think differently cos without all tis little promises to one another, i dun think is easy to keep the friendship lasting as long as we wan. at least wit such promises, we will try our very best to maintain contact wit each other. sending regards to one another no matter where we r in the future is a little promise i believe i can give. since technology is so gd nowadays, we will definitely be able to organise outings n gatherings to catch up wit one another's life. PINKY PROMISE!!!

didnt noe y i suddenly feel like writing tis, bt oh well, lets enjoy each other's company to the fullest through the 1 yrs plus left. swimming at spgg wit yenru, xue bing n suxin today. is super fun, even though the pool is a little small. swam for abt 1 hr plus. xue bing taught me a little bit abt freestyle. super funny when i tried to jump up frm the water to sit on the pool edge. tried so many times then always half way cannt hold on, drop inside water again haha. went to shower at abt 2. shld see our faces when we saw the jacuzzi in the women changing room. we were like wow when we saw it. went into the hotter one, arh so cosy. then aft tat transfer to the cold one, is super funny cos the water is damn freaking cold loh. suxin was like the only one who manage to sit rite in. the other 3 of us were shaking frm the coldness haha. only our legs were in while we slowly test the water. we couldnt stay for more than 1 min haha. shower aft tat.


oh n today i used the same kind of bag as suxin, everyone ask me y am i using her bag, haha.
one more thing fanny tortured my xiao qi today arhh...n guess wat happen, she pulled out my xiao qi's anthena, poor xiao qi. suxin help me sew bac...fanny is so evil haha ><


spgg changing room





















what ms see xue bing did during the seminar suxin came my hse today haha, suxin r u honoured, u r the first poly friend to come my hse haha...ps arh my hse look alot like storeroom, wit so many things. we chat alot n did ship stab qns. send suxin to bus stop at 4 plus. glad tat u enjoy ur short stay in my hse. sian wanted to pull clara come one then she say she lazy-_-'''.

sem paper coming soon, im like so dead. still hanging at midair for emec. arhhh...my cat is so noisy(random)...nvm im bored... awww.....i so wanna catch the movie hachiko now. the bloody trailer made me cry><. so many movies i wanna watch man, everyone lets go watch hachiko tgt. highly recommend the show.
i have a soft spot for animal movies man esp those kind which depicts a lot abt life story, friendship, loyalty n love. previously watch one called 10 promises to my dog, god how sad can it be, i cried almost the whole movie. looking for more movies like tis to watch. omg wats wrong wit me man...tis is like the 2nd time tat i walk out of a breadtalk without paying for the bread><. n i only realised it aft for like 15 mins, lucky the cashier girl noes me when i ran bac to pay her. haha ps. today i was totally freaked out by the lucky draw box. they only had the box filled up to 1/4 so i had to reach my hands in quite deep to dig it. lol man i was scared by the styroform balls in the box, screamed on the spot, everyone was giggling at my reaction, arhh so ps><.

yay i finally finished my csw cover letter, took me freaking long to complete. i think my english is deproving, cannt even write a simple cover letter within one day...well slpy bb workshop today is fun...lots of teamwork n laughter in the workshop while doin the jobs. our grp gt a rather small pump to do bt looks can be deceiving man. the pump is small bt diff to do nia. gt an accident also, scare me to death. was turning the expander bt turned too fast n hard the whole head came off, broken end shot xianyang on the lips, ouch!!! bt xianyang n me can say is even le cos once he accidently injured my finger in workshop so now i kinda play a part in his injury also cos i was the one holding the handle while he did the turning haha. so yay we're even. oh bt im glad all 3 gals r in the same grp today yay!!!

fanny n suxin ka jiao me again today nia, say alot of things make me blush like an apple><. suxin still say i bully her. where gt is suxin bully me one.... boring boring...nth to do at hme, dun feel like studying.
emec lesson, cher was talking to us abt the overseas itp program. he talk for like almost the whole lesson, only had like 15 mins of work examples doing haha. waited for xue bing for lunch aft tat. gt a dumbdumb hello frm charlton, haha. he was like hello here hello there then in the end added a hello to the 4 gals...funny><, poor thing gt a hit on the head by suxin, pain? haha.

ate at fc1, curry chicken noodles for me. went to lib to do csw assignment, sian took me so long to finish. n the stupid words made my box so big cannt edit to make it smaller, then in the end nd to make a new doc. csw lesson at 3. ended early bt fanny they all wanna ask cher qns so we hang ard in class crap-ing while waiting. all the crap-ings were hilarious...sunye did a rly funny action, nv video down lah, is freaking funny. bused hme ard 5 plus...

crap-ing wit suxin n kevin online now... wat the fuck man, does money rly mean so much to u...its only a few bucks. if tis little amount of money can make u feel so bu she de den dun give. i can pay for it mineself using mine own HARD EARNED MONEY!!! seriously hu the fuck is able to sustain n use $18 of call value for 6 months, some ppl maybe bt sry im nt tat some ppl...is like wat the hell im like how old alrdy, 18 n u still wan to do things like keeping track of my phone bills, checking on my phone. so glad tat u dun noe how to use my phone. im old enough n i gt my own life n circle of friends. saying things like having too much social activities, spending so much on msg-ing is so freaking annoying. den wat? u wan me to kao zhi bi let u see isit. if one day i rly become like tat be prepare, i can tell u tat u wouldnt be happy either.

i had enough of all tis kind of money talks n all the restrictions. if u think im nt thrifty enough so be it, if u think im starting to be rebellious so be it, i dun give a damn anymore cos u nv seem to have faith in me. u can make conclusions witout even knowing anything. tis few day u had shown me ur blackest face, passing sarcastic remarks n telling me off randomly witout a bloody reason. im nt ur fucking anger bag whereby u can anyhow put ur anger on. if ur're angry wit ur own friends, ur own things, dun come to me n crash everything on me. its rly frustrating tat aft getting the random scolding frm u, u expect me to smile happily when u feel happy. frm now on watever u say i will listen, bt whether or nt its gonna stay in my brain is up to me to decide. im so looking forward to a time where i can jus gt out of tis bloody situation n live a life of my own. looking forward to overseas studys...

aft sch today, slacked at concourse wit xue bing they all while waiting for kevin to come. his words had prob so nd to borrow my lappy to do his reports. left lappy wit him while me suxin yenru n bing mrted down to marsiling to buy new future jeans n shorts. mrted bac to je aft tat to meet kevin to gt bac my lappy. accompany him wait for his gf. slacked at je lib while waiting, crap alot. went hme at abt 6 plus... given permission by the victim, i hereby blog abt the online harassment my dear friend encountered. hilarious issue man.(name will nt be mentioned for the privacy n welfare of my friend, haha)

random indian guy added him on msn, chat wit him n asked him for............s*x, haha...deleted the guy frm his msn contact bt the guy added him bac again. tis time ask him for something worse(nt gonna elaborate)>< jus so gross...finally tis friend is smart enough to block n delete him tis time round. he said tis "omg, knn, f**kin disgusting. a guy n hes a indian n IM RACIST" abit no link lah funny bt my poor friend had to encounter such a thing online. ewwwwwwww....... sexual harassment online. the internet is seriously a dangerous place bt we still continue using it daily. how much $$ ppl earn through the net.

nth much for today, the regular lectures n tutorials etc. ended sch early as usual for tues. went to crash xue bing class for thermo n mmit. been so long since i last attended a wedding dinner. finally went for my tuition teacher's big day yesterday at orchard hotel. high class...i love the place man, great ballroom, great ambience, great seats. bt most importantly GREAT FOOD!!!! haha. they say a lady is most beautiful on her wedding day as the bride, its so true...sharon is gorgeous n her husband is looking handsome too. rly happy for her. rly tired though, the dinner ended at abt 11 plus. my mum n i reach hme at 12 plus. i mineself slp at 1 plus, today in sch im so slpy i dunno wat the teachers were teaching(oops)...

sianx...now gt to start doing csw assignment, i totally forgotten abt it. lucky suxin reminded me today in class><. today i gt new nicks frm xue bing they all, so weird. bing calls me winter haha cos today they said the shirt i wear is like for winter. suxin n clara calls me slow baby cos of the vitagen competition wit clara. can u believe it im slower then ms laggy chew haha...omg such a weird name.



old song i gt hooked on

Take me to your heart-Micheal learns to rock

Hiding from the rain and snow
Trying to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat
So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you girl
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is
Haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true
They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is
Be my guiding star
It's easy
Take me to your heart
Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend
Don't need too much talking
Without saying anything
All I need is someone
Who makes me want to sing
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is
Haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true
They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is
Be my guiding star
It's easy
Take me to your heart
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is
Be my guiding star
It's easy
Take me to your heart

heres another top 10 list of things i LOVE!!!

1st: CHOCOLATE!!!(n also something link wit choco><)
2nd: my friends
3rd: itouch n phone n psp n etc(all my electronics stuff)
4th: guigui n xiao qi
5th: my kitties
6th: teenage mag
7th: ice cream
8th: green tea
9th: comics/manga
10th: slping in lib wit xiao xue, xiao jie n xiao ling. xiao xin jus left. haha sian nth much to do here. wanna do some serious work then in the end talk n talk n play game. xiao jie his stomach dunno gt worm or wat nia can eat 5 hotdog buns...now he slping haha funny face. me, xiao xue n xiao ling gonna play monopoly cards nt the board game. haha complicated nia. bt it seems fun haha.

edited @ 5.49pm
suddenly felt like writing top 10 things i fear, inspiration by xiao jie haha

top of the list is: GHOST!!!
2nd: lizards
3rd: cockroaches
4th: frogs/reptiles
5th: creepy crawlies eg. worms
6th: rats
7th: thunder
8th: being alone
9th: fierce ppl
10th: school... today is shopping day haha so happy n tired. went to bugis wit xuebing, yenru n suxin to buy things. i spent the most loh witdraw $150...die no money le. bought 2 pair of new future jeans n a pair of heels to match my dress for sun the wedding dinner. walk walk ard bugis street.

mrted down to orchard aft tat cos xue bing they all wanna buy clothes frm the cotton on at wisma. the 4 of us r rly funny while choosing the inner beauty things. they hang them so packed on the shelves, every time we take one, another will drop down. super hilarious man. abt 5 plus me n suxin take mrt to jp while xue bing n yenru went off. mummy bday today, dunno wat to gt her so in the end gt a small bouquet of flowers for her. exp nia...bt nvm lah, for mummy one cannt complain.

jus now i jus did the stupidest thing ever. wanted to replace my screen protector for my itouch, aft sticking nicely the first side, i pull out the 2nd side. i was like super happy thinking tat i was so pro at it tat there is nt a single air bubble on the screen. threw the rubbish into the bin witout realising tat actually i had pull out the whole protector. dumb man, only realise aft like 5 mins. had to dig the bin for the protector loh-_-''' my protector is all dirty now. use alcohol to clean it so now is better i think.

n guess wat today i was so high tat i thought of cute names for my fellow friends, see list below:
me - xiao ming
suxin -xiao xin
yenru - xiao yen
clara - xiao yin
fanny - xiao jin
xue bing - xiao xue
jane - xiao shi
sage - xiao ling
sunye - xiao ye
kevin - xiao jie
charlton - xiao xiong
jonaton - xiao sheng
xian yang - xiao yang

cool rite haha, nxt time i shld call everyone by tis names haha >< arhh slpy n tired, i dun like to go study. today had electronics, ship stab n mek.
all r uber boring.
esp the mek lesson, i jus dunno y the lesson seem to have a slping effect on the class. initially everyone was quite hyper, bt once the video on engines r being played, we jus cannt help bt feel slpy. clara n me, our eyes were slowly drooping down n finally we both fell aslp.
finally sch ended at 2 plus then we finally can go hme.

fanny n clara arh, tis 2 they r uber bo liao one. keep ka jiaoing me in class><. n today dun seem a lucky day for me nia, played dai di wit sun ye jonaton n xiang yang. of all the 5 to 6 rounds i win like only once><.

im tired, seriously nd to gt some slp soon bye

edited:
jus gt a small accident at hme, maid broke a big bowl n gt a big cut, ouch. the bleeding like tap like tat non stop one scary. lucky gt first aider at hme nia ME!!! haha im so nice still nd wash plates for her leh. my delicate hands man. first time do so many washing loh so many plates. some more mummy cook soup today. still nd help to wash the pot. gd lah like training like tat bah. now my hands super itchy dunno isit cos of the detergent T_T... i dunno wat else to say...y do things gt to go to such a extent. everyone jus seriously gt to cool down n talk things over. the thing(u noe wat) is important bt our friendship is also important, dun wan to break our friendship over these issues. life is like tis, things dun always happen the way we wan them to. at the end of the day, for anything tat happpens, we jus gt to sit down relax n solve the problems we face. everyone jus nd to be more understanding to one another n cooperate tgt.
lets jus see how it goes tmw....... morning went to church wit mum, then aft tat went to orchard walk walk. sian nt much sales going on, wanna buy some clothes also cannt, all so exp. orchard is nt the place for me.

hmm...dunno wat happen to my stomach, feel rly weird for some time le. everytime i eat something be it a small thing or big thing i also dun seem to have the appetite to eat. bt there r also times where i dun feel tis way. something is wrong wit me? nvm small thing lah i guess. my finger still hurts.
yah chinese new yr coming, gt angpaos le haha.
gonna go watch my zhong ji sanguo le...

P.S: 总觉得自己是个笨蛋加白痴>< ouch, finger pain. gt cut by the centrifugal pump today at workshop, hurts. is so ironical tat a small wound like mine hurts more than a large wound. bleed a little also T^T.

workshop was ok today, i did the dismantling n assembling of a small centrifugal pump all by myself leh, haha. actually had 2 pumps assigned to my grp bt then the 2 guys in my grp did the bigger one so i did the mini one myself. aiyo i forgt to take picture of the pump i did. nxt wk bah if i gt the chance.

fanny n suxin is evil again today. they steal my safety shoe n hide it haha. workshop also took a longer time today, finished exactly at 1pm i think. aft workshop went to open hse wit suxin. nth much to see. shared a candy floss wit suxin. bused hme aft tat at abt 2 plus to 3. im slpy wanna slp. Let me die-sad bt nice song(i jus like the lyrics, nth personal)

Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to midnight
Don't wake when lightning strikes
My heart for you is true
Let no one take that from you
Time is running tight
Can't change from wrong to right
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little
Just like how we used to be baby
Its time to say farewell now
No need to cry of feelings
Oh it's alright
I'll end the end of lies
Heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go
I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine
I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace
My sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can change my world from black to white
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little more
Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to midnight
Don't wake when lightning strikes
Heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go
I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine
I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace
My sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can get me straight to fight
Till the sky is burning
It's the end of time
Look ahead tomorrow
Long and winding road
Keep the faith of mine
Don't let it go
You're the only reason
That I'm growing cold
What would I do
Without you
I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine
I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace
My sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can make my world so bright
Life no longer ends here with you in my heart
In my heart...

sad, i think i didnt do well for the csw test today. didnt had enough time to read through the paper n prepare properly. phone ettique, i was quite confident at it bt now my confident is shattered T_T. my poor glass heart is broken by csw. i hate u csw, y mus u do tis to me...

today aft lunch was so sian cos csw test starts at 3pm. slack in the lib, then went to crash xue bing's autocad class, bt didnt stay long cos her class seems fully occupied. thus in the end aft gettin wat i nd frm xue bing, also left her class to go bac to lib to slack AGAIN!!! suxin n fanny they all so evil, bully me, steal my doraemons. kevin also, hanis also, lingzhen also, sunye also, suxin bf also. EVIL PPL><. esp kevin u big bully, lock my itouch...nvm everyone had fun can le, haha.

aft csw, pei kevin to wait for jane. see i so nice rite? haha. then we went to the sp open house for awhile then went hme aft tat.
oh n i think i noe the show call 2002 wit the song let me die. watch b4 last time, was one of my fav show. second day of sch is so sucky bt maybe a little fun? i dunno all mixed up. lao ye is damn evil, dun wanna give us our mek results. clara n fanny all r swearing n scolding. he said things like dun wan ppl to be disheartened etc is all nonsense, so unfair. well at least i gt bac my electronics paper, did quite well, 85 marks. mek lesson was so boring, 1st cannt gt bac results, 2nd the video on 4-stroke engine is boring. my eyes were half open throughout the video. finally the day ended aft the video. went to fc2 to find charlton n kevin, walked tgt to the mrt station. thks to the both of them for accompanying me to wait for my bus^^.
reached hme abt 4 plus, slpy-_-.
suddenly im hook onto some old songs. rly like 你最珍贵 n 星语心愿. the lyrics for 星语心愿 is so sad, like the last line of the song>>

就向流星许个心愿, 让你知道我爱你
sch is starting tmw n jus the thought of it makes me feel so sian. bt wat can i do holidays r over le mus go bac to study again. tis sem term test was nt very confident so for the sem exam gt to study real hard to score well. well jus tis few hrs times im gonna watch many movies n play lots of games. aft sch starts i nd to control myself to stay away frm the com as much as possible, worse come to worse i will study in sch if i have to. its so distracting place in front of me. i cannt be tempted-_-.
yesterday was quite a tiring day cos morning went church wit mum then abt 11 plus went to cineleisure for a lunch cum kbox treat by boss frm christmas hats sales. so many ppl there, first time i went into such a big room in kbox. bt didnt rly sang much, only abt 2 songs. when i reached there i was like so sian cos im like the only orchard seller there. the others r the santarinas n nel sellers. they rly high loh the nel sellers. they sang for like 3 hrs plus. lunch was chicken teriyaki bento, bt nv rly eat much. my drink also only had like 3 sips then nv drink le. gt my pay yeah bt earned rly little tis yr. oh well off to play games!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

a new year, a new start.
2009 was quite an exciting yr for me, learnt many new things n made some rly diff decisions. 2009 is also the yr where i turn 18 le, the yr i take a further step out of my protection shell put up by my parents. tis is gonna be a rly long post.

some flashback of 2009:
-valentine's day gifts for classmates (nv did tis kind of things b4)
-trying to adapt to yr 2 class (diff modules)
-making an effort to make more friends (seperated frm yr 1 friends)
-organising gatherings (nv had a chance to do so)
-going out often wit friends (a little more freedom frm parents)
-bday surprised by friends (nv had such a day in other bdays)
-a super fun class gathering (seldom having whole class present)
-gt a little courage to do some things (a little by little is gd enough)
-important decision made (can change my life)
-making christmas presents for friends (determination even when i dun feel like doing them)
-etc.

new yr resolutions for 2010:
-make an effort to study well
-gpa of nt below 3, abt 3.5
-nt be distracted easily
-be more courageous
-break free frm protective shell of parents
-making major decisions carefully
-most importantly keeping everyone ard me happy n have lots of fun^^

new yr resolutions had to be realistic, thus i had rly small bt diff goals set so tat they can be achieved bit by bit. i dunno how is life gonna be like for the future, so the only things we can do is to live our lifes to the fullest.

some quotes to remind me of life:
-Live life like you're going to die today, dream like your going to live forever.
-Life is full of hard choices, all you can do is choose a path and never look back.
-Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a gift, that's why they call it the present.
-In a world where you can be anything, be yourself
-Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, but do so with all your heart. jus return bac frm kboxing wit friends today, tired n slpy bt dun feel like slping cos wanna countdown to 2010. so sian me n yenru had to stay at our hme n count down ourselves, she still has her bro to accompany her, im all alone so sad...bt is alright i think there is going to be a fireworks at my hse here yea then im gonna take video n zhi high myself haha. anw i've gt red wine n strawberries to accompany me through the night. took some pics at kbox also, shall post them when suxin upload them^^.
pretty happy today, at least i gt to spent the last day of 2009 wit all my fav pals. sang till our throat hurts haha. wanted to watch sherlock homles aft kbox one bt gt no gd timeslot so mrted n bused hme aft dinner. went to imm daiso today to gt the felts n some stuffs. cannt find a smaller piece of felt for the beige colour so in the end gt a rly big one as in super big, 64 by 64 cm. felt stupid cos i kinda only nd a small portion of it n i gt such a big one. wonder wat can be made frm it, think jus keep it in the cupboard n grow mould haha. yeah we're gathering on the 31th so happy. at least we gt to play a bit b4 sch officially opens again. i kinda broke now haha spent a little at imm.
hmm...nd to do some reflections on mineself soon to become a better me in the coming new yr. nd to gt rid of some old n bad habits, wanna start the new yr fresh^^. i wan chinese new yr haha gt angpaos(random).

Love is jus a word till someone u meet gives it a meaning.
(n im glad tat someone is u^^) finally can have a get tgt soon wit friends, everyone seem so busy for tis holiday working n stuff. yeah kbox time. sch's opening in abt 1 more week time, sian had to study again. well a new yr is coming, hope everything can go on smoothly n happily throughout the yr. all the sewings for the presents r going on quite well, i think im gonna finish it soon bt i nd more felts, nd to find time to gt them frm daiso. oh im so happy yesterday its my lucky day. i manage to sell quite a lot of hats yeah!!!! bt orchard is like super crowded so many ppl til i had headache near the end of the day. n i dun like my hair, yesterday morning was forced by mum to go cut my hair, the auntie cut it too short i hate it. today is the last day of the christmas hat sales so im like finally gonna be free le. ltr gonna watch alvin n the chipmunks woohoo!!! alright gtg bb^^ have nt finished sewing all the presents, sian i suddenly feel so tired of all the sewing. well i made the choice of wanting to make them so no matter wat i guess i jus gt to try n finish them loh. work was like super boring everyday n i have decided tat nxt yr im nt gonna do the selling, im gonna do the sewing instead haha. i have pretty much confident in my sewing skills.
n im super pissed wit blogger now, the music part is always giving me problems again n again. tis is like the 3rd time tat the player cannt function properly arhh... ouch, gt ulcer in my mouth, 2 some more. tis few days mus be cos always outside n weather changing constantly, started to gt a little heaty. sian so pain had to force myself to use one side of my mouth. didnt went for work today also, anw it doesnt make any difference whether i work or nt cos i simply cannt sell them well.
yesterday work was super boring n the time goes rly slowly. bt i manage to find some fun things to pass the time, watching the christmas performances at paragon tat side. i was actually standing at taka area then kept watching the show frm there. i rly like one part of the performance whereby the ppl dance to the wonder girl's nobody song. was super funny man the moves they did esp the guys, the way they dance is freaking funny, i kept on laughing. too bad i nv take a video of the dance, i will see if i can gt the chance again when i go work tmw. haha
today watched zombieland n transformer 2 online. zombieland was pretty gross wit the killing bt overall is quite funny. stupid transformers, it kept buffering making the movie viewing rly frustrating. now im currently left wit the last part of the movie n it is still buffering, haiz sian... so unlucky yesterday, was working bt in the end i became an orchard directory, so many ppl keep coming to me asking me how to go here how to go there. some china ppl also so funny came n ask me orchard gt wat place sell black pepper crab haha, i seriously dunno how to ans them loh. then sales was also super lousy as usual, then off work at 11 plus, damn i miss my last train to cityhall then nd to take the super long journey via woodlands bac to jurong east sian abt 18 stations loh, some more no place to sit. was super lucky still in time for last bus hme if nt mus take cab bac liao. came hme still nd to hear some idiotic comments by someone, sucker. shower n slp at 2am till 6am then wake up cos nd go church. sian i rly dunno how to push the sales loh, im jus nt made for sales lah, nxt time i will nt do any sales tat need pushing one. i rather stand in a shop n jus serve customers when they come in, haha. anw rachel said i gt gd customer service skills so i think i do better in those kind of job or better gt a data entry job. easy plus no nd to scare cannt meet target. today i finally watched new moon, nt tat bad aft all haha. jacob in his wolf form is so hot...i rly pity him so sad for him heartboken. some parts r kinda gross n the sound is scary too, the kissing scenes r so intense n passionate, gt a little goosebumps. shop at jp n gt a new pair of black pants, the ones xue bing intro me to buy, new future jeans haha. quite exp leh 39.90. reached hme ard 6 plus.
sian left tmw off work then fri mus go bac work again...boss said gt some new developments for the sales of hats, hoping it can help to pull up my sales better if nt arh sian nv earn much tis yr bt then the main reason is also to help gt more funds for the charity, so i rly hope ppl can be generous n nt complain so much at it being too exp. it takes alot of effort n money to make them one. im so shagged for 2 days, i rly cannt tahan liao stand there for 6 hrs no place to sit n rest then no ppl buy...y isit so tough to sell one sian, last yr did so well then tis yr so lousy...
everyday go hme so late. for the past 2 days i reached hme at 12, 1 plus so tired n slpy. lucky i gt an excuse to take off for 2 days then fri mus go bac again arh............

one day i caught myself smiling for no reason, then i realised i was thinking of u i dun feel like working leh bt then i also wan earn money sian...holiday quite busy, wan go out wit friends, make christmas present n work haiz...
wat to do.... test finally over liao yea can play for some time b4 starting sch ard jan.
went to watch storm warriors 2 wit kevin, jane n charlton, the cinema arh aircon like no nd $$ one full blast n the sound system is like super loud until the seats can vibrate one. overall was a nice show lah exciting i shld say bt the ending makes me a little blur, i think there is gonna be another sequels bah. went to a coffee shop near jane hse for dinner.
mrted n bused hme aft tat. had fun today cos celebrated suxin bday tgt.
i finally wore the dress i bought frm suxin's friend blogshop n i wore wit heels. damn it man one of my heels the strip came off aft i had a slip, stupid lucky still can walk nicely if nt so ps man, plus nd buy new one if cannt walk.
had buffet wit alot of ppl at MS yuki yaki, super full, so much food. our table is so so so funny. dramatic man over the teppanyaki oil poping abt while doing the cooking, the left over food n making of the ice cream haha. initially dun nd to do any cooking cos xue bing n yenru who is nearer to the teppanyaki is cooking, then for awhile they went to take some more food, me kevin n charlton started to help to keep the food frm being burnt, the oil kept on poping abt burning our hands, ouch!!! then near the end we cannt finish some of the meat bt cannt let the ppl there noe cos it cost 5 bucks for every 100g of food wasted, so we had a stupid bt cute idea of throwing them in a plastic bag then throwing them outside yuki yaki. haha super funny. our table the ice cream initially also look so yucky, bt then slowly we manage to master the tactic n gt ice cream to eat haha. finally ended the lunch wit a game call zhong ji mi ma. fun game, dun wanna elaborate^^.
mrted hme aft doing a little walking at MS. yea i think i might jus gt a nice result for my electronics today cos the drawings i seem to noe them quite well n so r the qns. i was scared to do wrongly bt lucky checked wit suxin n noe tat its correct, phew!!! im in love wit the hai pei tain xin ost, faster come out the ost i wan to dl to listen, esp ai feng tou by show luo n yu ai by rainie, super love tis two songs haha n the show makes me wanna learn the pink panther dance haha. okae im off to study again sayonara!!! yea i finally understand most of the qns frm electronics, i hope i will be able to do them tmw during the test. now all im left wit is mek n emec to study. mek i think i will memorise all the slides the lao ye showed us during his revision. emec i gt no choice need to practise more of the qns to understand n noe how to do. arh i rly suck at mechanics man, year 1 was also like tis for the applied mechanics, did badly for tat then now tis too haiz im nt made for mechanics. now i suddenly like thermo more, cos it seems easier to understand...

Meeting u was fate, becoming ur friend was a choice, bt falling in love wit u, i had no control over.
GAMBATE ROSALYN FOR EVERYTHING U DO!!! today workshop is so fun n tiring at the same time haha. did the bench fitting stuff, disassembling the valves n doing some cleaning n then putting them back tgt . i was grp wit hanis n we gt to do the gate valve. hell man the stupid nuts on the valve is like super hard man, both of us r nt like the strong type. use so much strength bt cant open a single inch haha. in the end asked lingzhen to help, super funny 7 ppl to unscrew jus 6 nuts. 6 of us hold on to the valve while lingzhen did the unscrewing, can see how hard it is. bt its kinda fun to see such teamwork among friends n classmates, the cher also said tat tis section of workshop requires a lot of teamwork. for the first time our grp finished earlier than the rest of the grp haha. ended lesson at abt 12 pplus then went oto change n meet kevin to study. he wanted me to tutor him so i taught him, i hope i teach correctly. bused hme at abt 2 plus.
i jus saw my shelves n realise i rly gt lots of comics so many man haha




my comics frm tis...

...to tis im dead rly dead, i think i flunked my csw test...i was stunned for like 15 mins when i gt the qns paper. wat in the world is it all abt man. i cannt study language paper so the only thing i can do is to make use of my english power to write the essay. i seriously think im super impolite in the letter writing arh!!!!! the paper was 1 hr 50 mins n i finished it in like 1 hr n then remaining time i jus kept repeatedly read the essay. omg i dun wanna fail pls jus let me pass tis section. lucky tis carries a small percentage in the whole csw module, i mus work hard for the phone ettique n job interview section cos they hold the most marks.
so sian today went to sch for abt 2 hrs jus for the csw test. im so bad watched abt 3 eps of hi! my sweetheart till 2 then leave the house. lucky i reached class on the dot for the test if nt i will die cannt take the paper. actually today i was suppose to go to sch like at 12 to teach kevin the thermo module then abt 10 plus he msg me say wanna cancel cos he gt something on so in the end i stayed at hme n watch my show. didnt had time previously to watch. anw im going back to my studys now haha sayonara ^^ "Cough Cough go away, dun u ever come again"

im so slpy today for the whole day cos of my cough. i kept coughing the whole nite yesterday n did nt slp at all. stupid cough i hate u, go away. morning dragged myself off bed n went to sch at 7.30, yet again im standing all the way to sch for the whole bus journey, pain nia my leg. had mek lesson in morning, lao ye is so evil jus did a little revision again nv even give us any hints for the term test. aft tat had tutorials bt was optional so me n suxin jus waited in class for sunye they all to finish tutorial then went to library to study. we r so funny, reached the library bt the first thing we did was to borrow the mouse boardgame to play haha, till louis yuhan n hongming came to find us. they laugh when they saw us playing cos we r like the only bunch playing game there cos the other tables of students were all studying. aft one round we kept the game n started to do some serious studying. studied till abt 2 plus then we all started to feel slacky...suxin wanna go hme so all of us agreed n left the library.
bused hme aft tat. at hme mum forced me to drink a cup of ginger tea yuck...so hot i dun like ginger or anything wit ginger in it. oh n my leg is recovering bt i still dunno y there is still a red patch at the area where i did my therapy n it stilll hurt T_T......... oww....my legs hurts like hell, how come im feeling tat the money is wasted cos it seems to gt worse frm the therapy i gt today, 20 bucks man. n my cough still has nt recovered. morning dunno y when i woke up, i found my left foot to be feeling a little sore n cannt seem to walk normally. plus stand all the way on the bus frm hme to sch. went to sch n was limping a little cos cannt put the leg flat down. aft electronics lesson suxin say tat my foot was swelling a little so she advice me to go for some te da (chinese leg therapy).i told her is okae bt then she say mus go. so in the end she, xue bing n charlton pei me to clementi there to find a clinic. the therapy hurts like hell man, i did nt dare to scream too loud so i kept grabbing onto the towel, tears in my eye too T_T. im so nt going to such a therapy ever again...
had lunch at the hawker centre near clementi mrt there then bused bac to sch. xue bing came to our class to crap wit us. then mek lesson, lao ye did some revision wit us then hme aft tat
im happy bt i dunno how r things going to be in time to come, lets jus pray n hope for the best soon...

shall i smile cos we r friends, or cry cos tats all we may ever be?

MST COMING IM SO SCARED!!!I WANNA SCORE!!! i hate being sick cos i hate the medicine......yucky cough syrup. tis morning was so slpy cos of the cough syrup gt side effects aft i ate it, i decided to do some studying bt cannt cos feeling so drowsy, so went to take a nap. woke up at abt lunch time then had fried rice frm yesterday. sat ard for a while then went to start studying.
tried understanding the ship stab bt i still cannt understand die liao sian. tried finding some answers for the mek2, in the end only found for like a few questions nvm ltr i shall continue. tmw im thinking of finding ang ler hwi to ask him teach me the 1st chapter of the emec. started studying it some time ago n found tat the chapters somehow have some link between the chapters, thus if i dun noe how to do the 1st chapter then i cannt rly do much for the other chapters as well even if i understand them.
electronics i think i gonna memorise all the circuit diagrams....
fri was a happy day for me cos we finally talk to each other, i hope we can continue tis way everyday haha. too bad no msg for 2 days i guess its tough to start a random topic wit our current relationship. well is alright tis kind of things cannt be rushed, takes time, i will wait....... im so slpy now, cannt seem to be able to do anything man. gt backaches n stiff neck for the whole day yyyy...well i think is cos of my fever yeaterday, i broke a record of 39.4 degrees, my highest fever temp for the very first time haha, think i was too tired lah.
gt mini lecture frm suxin cos i told her tat yesterday i went to do some running then went hme straight away go shower then slp, aft i woke up fever haha she was so stun for a while then started lecturing me...sry lah i didn noe mus cool down first then can take shower mah so long nv do running liao forgt wat to do, wat nt to do. i hate being sick, feel so tired.
today had emec lesson in the morningt then had lunch at fc2, aft tat went to the a place outside library to slack while suxin n the rest did their ppt for csw. kevin n his gf joined us aft some time. kevin told me something which makes me happy yet sad at the same time haha....and btw
KEVIN STOP KA JIAOING ME U BIG BULLY :P "im a happy gal in a happy worlddd, life in poly is so fantasticcc"

haha lame sentence which i gt frm the im a barbie girl song jus changed some of the words. i dunno im jus so high today cos of something, no one noes only i do haha yea...well im actually high n happy all day long up till now. some stupid incident jus crush my happiness n i think sooner or ltr i will nt be able to take it liao.
STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im starting to chiong liao cos term test comming up soon in like less than 2 weeks n im still empty for some modules like electronics and emec. lucky im starting to understand some parts of the shipstab liao, jus need to do more of the tutorial, plus ms cathy cong is so nice to let us noe roughly the qns so tat we can jus concentrate on the 3 qns set in the term test.
BT I STILL NEED TUTORING, ANYONE CAN JUS HELP MEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so scared n lost now, wat am i gonna do now so worry, crying for her...if u see tis pls dun be sad watever happen u still have all of us tgt we will nt abandon u. pls be strong i mean i noe u r stronger than we think, bt the words r so scary tat im still crying now, dun make me cry cos im supppose to be happy so u mus stay happy then i will nt cry ok...i noe im nt u so i dun noe the feeling bt frm ur words i can rly feel in me the heartache u r having now, theres still time chill down n lets see u tmw in sch okae, dun block us away we r always there for u

JIAYOU!!!JIAYOU!!!JIAYOU!!! arhhh im super tired today n so so shag.......... did 7 hrs of workshop wit fanny n suxin jus to do the stupid dull gauge alignment, is like super hard a bit too much force the reading go haywire. had to screw n unscrew so many times to align it. did like 5 hrs then finally the cher say the shim can be remove, cos it is placed by him one haiz, the cher cheat our feelings sia. almost gt it already then the cher come make make then reading out again n then we have to do again.
actually we keep doing it is cos the cher say if we can gt the rite tolerance of +5 -5, he will give the three of us distinction one loh. too bad we dun gt to have it cos we did so many times n none of the times we passed. bt then guess the cher may give us A if he happy cos he always say he will mark us nt only by the performance bt also the attitude towards the workshop. thus i think we shd gt quite high marks for our effort.
so slpy now n i wish i can join xuebing the class gathering loh can chitchat tgt, bt everyone noes how strict my mum is, sure cannt go one tats y i dun even bother to ask cos i will noe the answer anw. how i wish i can gt more freedom fr my parents n i think dad is actually nt tat strict cos most of the time when i tell him he will nt rly say much jus ask me to nt to play too much nt like mum keep nagging n nagging n then ended up wit a quarrel wit me. i dun wanna do tat i jus wish i can have a little better communication wit mum bt at times the thing she says jus annoys me alot n she will always think she is rite. i hope she can be a little more relax on me jus abit will do n i will be happy enough.
now i nd to think of a deal wit her so tat she will allow me to go out wit my friends on the 27th of nov, i rejected my friends bt im thinking of a way to go. THINK!!! lesson in the morning 8.30, the first lesson mek lao ye still talks alot bt teach quite alot today also. aft teaching for 1 hour he see the whole class ppl r all looking very tired so he decided to stop there for the day. n the class today all of a sudden so gd tell the teacher is okae he can continue bt the cher say nvm cos still gt time to teach give us rest. aft mek were tutorials, emec n electronics, did some tutorial qns in class. lesson ended at 12.30, so me n suxin when to xue bing class to wait for her cos we three going to bugis tgt.
had pasta mania for lunch cos i told suxin n xue bing tat i nv eat b4 so they so nice pei me eat there. me n suxin had the mushroom bake rice n xue bing gt some very creamy spaghetti. oh n i gt chicken wings too haha my craving for chicken wings had nt subside. i ate abt half of the bake rice then gave up to eat the chicken wings haha yummy..........
aft lunch go bugis street walking n buy some things, i gt a nice belt n necklace to match a dress i bought some time back. mrt-ed hme aft did a little more shopping at bugis junction. the xuebing n suxin arh keep ka jiaoing me. anw reached hme abt 4 plus. im a little tired bb im so sian n lifeless, lessons today i finally understand a bit of the ship stab n mek stuff, well abit. no practical also, the lao ye arh like super slack one nia, so many things to say also today in the class, lucky still gt teach arh if nt some ppl will be like sian dao...
did a lot of thinking in class n at hme still thinking if i made a right choice, some say ok some say nt ok so in the end im still so full of dotz n qn marks haha.
came hme super early today, clara took bus wit me. alighted at the market to buy teenage bt dunno y still nt out yet leh so in the end bought seventeen. bought chicken wings also cos all of a sudden i had a craving for it, gt 2 fried n 1 bbq one. i ate the bbq one while mum n maid took the fried one.
yea im happy cos today i very gd did some studying for ship stab n noe how to do the first 2 chapters already im fast haha jus kidding only did like 3 tutorial qns bt still a gd start lah.
used the com n came across an article abt big meteor shower all over the world, i was so happy n excited to see it bt in the end i readed properly n realised the article is frm yesterday one arhhh, which means the meteor shower was tis morning at 1am.
noooooooooo i missed it how can i arhhhhhhhhh. nvm jus wait for more articles lah bb com today...well nt exactly lah. today morning i switch on the com to do some multi-tasking work, doing csw assignment, watching ko sanguo n reading manga. jus found a nice one called he's dedicated to roses, weird name bt the manga is fun abt a plain girl who changes instantly to a hotshot boy aft being intolerance of the continuous bullying by a rich girl, then how in her boy form she met ppl n a lover who thinks he gay to fall in love wit her in boy form...readed a lot then came the exciting part where the boy found out abt the truth, then the website had nt uploaded so sian...guess i need to wait longer.
jus finished the csw assignment n email to the teacher. the teacher siao one every week give one assignment to do n some more is essay arhh sian...
i made a decision to do something bt i rly dunno is it the right thing to do now cos i kept thinking abt the consequences n the aftmath...someone supported me bt im a bit scared already...
oh well lets jus pray hard for things to fall in place. yea...today had a great time wit besties cos we went for a lunch ok maybe more of a dinner gathering tgt...gt me suxin xuebing yenru clara fanny sun ye kevin n charlton. it was made for five of us who r nov babies haha i think suxin n the rest gonna broke liao buying so many presents for us. we went to swensens to eat super full, suxin also so nice to buy an ice-cream cake for the 5 bday ppl haha so sry tat we keep complaining of being full n dun wan eat the cake i personally felt rly happy for the thought n so do the rest. then went to the arcade to play for a while.
THKQ SUXIN N EVERYONE!!!
morning workshop was super stress man the laser alignment thingy is like super duper freaking irritating, we keep on screwing unscrewing n turning to gt the best results n yet all fail haiz...y like tat one, we spend alot of time on it loh. lesson suppose to end at 1 then we keep doing till 1 plus then aft need to rush cos xue bing they all waited for us at jp for like 3 hrs plus...feel so bad bt well we still did enjoy ourselves today so hope nxt time can gather tgt more.

the dress i bought
today's lessons were super boring, didnt gt much things frm the lectures haha still full of question marks in the brain. morning gt electronics n ship stab, understand abit of the electronics, bt the ship stab i guess i need more practises at hme to noe how to do the questions.
aft lunch gt mek2 the lao ye as usual is very talkative bt still gt teach lah....finished lesson ard 3 plus then went to imm wit suxin jonaton n sun ye...went there to do somethings lah haha buy many many things at daiso...im rly in love wit daiso so many things to buy anw i gt some felts n handicraft things cos i wanna make something for all my besties for christmas all $2 only leh cheap cheap haha, bt im a little stupid, cos a packet of felts when i came bac then realised tat it is nt the normal one bt sticker kind sian sia haha nvm lah i think still can use lah, the most if cannt use then i ask suxin help me buy when she go daiso again....
im actually quite happy today cos i finally felt like a real 18 year old person cos i can go out wit pals to do shopping laugh ard n so on. tis is actually wat i rly wan, a nice shopping day wit friends witout having to answer to so many things jus informing mum abt the time i going hme only. bt of course i was nt tat bad also went hme ard 5 plus nt very late rite???
i rly hope i can have more of such time wit my friends, like going out shopping tgt, eating tgt etc. wishing mum will understand tis is all i ever wanted. a little more freedom is wat i rly wish for................................................ today we r all back in sch, everyone like nt in the mood to study aft the class bbq haha. nt much happened today anw morning ship stab lesson, then lunch at fc2 wit besties then when to lib. wanted to play boardgames one bt then no more space in lib, bt we met sage in thee lib so went into the gamesroom to play blockus or watever is the spelling haha...nt we borrow one lah.
then aft lunch gt emec lesson, the class super noisy one loh, i was also bored so took clara's borrowed books frm her n read baby blues haha. well tats all for today bb

my presents frm family n friends(balloon cannt see haha)

the balloon haha

presents frm family(close up)

our class photo haha today lesson at 10 so boring took bus to sch no one there....im always so early
morning gt engineering mechanics lesson, was nt rly listening to the teacher playing suxin's DS mario kart nice game ....lunch time i was also bored cos lesson ended early at 11.30 so wanted to wait for xue bing at fc 2.
suxin sunye n yenru dunno go where so nv take lunch tgt, clara n fanny went to fc 4 cos gt quite a long lunch break can rot away...so left me jiaying jj jonatan and xianyang at fc 2...the jonatan arh keep playing the itouch haha too bad mine was nt jailbroken so many games r demo version very short bt he still play like so fun haha...
12 noon xue bing n durges came n we all went to the library to slack...play boardgame didnt noe the name was so mouse game quite fun...aft lunch electronics practical...tell u arh the teacher teach is like super duper slow one keep repeating his words bt lucky i partner wit suxin n she do b4 so she can say gd at it yea...haha was so funny at first she was partner wit sunye then i wit jonatan bt then aft tat we decided to switch partners so i became wit suxin..........
practical was quite easy lah if u understand how to adjust all the things properly then more or less will how to do liao.
yea tonite gonna celebrate bdae advance wit mum n dad at hme so happy daddy gt me the itouch mummy gt me a pendant n yanti gt me necklaces too...now is left wit presents by pals....i wonder wat they giving me suxin made me so excited saying tat it will be a big surprise haha faster faster.....anw shall post some pics of presents ltr on haha last post aug...can see how sian and lazy am i to do blogging at home
bt seriously i gt mixed feelings abt blogging, sometimes i wish to go under construction sometimes i so bu she de the blog haha lame rite.....
well pals r all nagging n grumbling abt my blog rotting so i guess i jus might start to blog again maybe ok if i feel like it haha.
well lets see how shall i start............sch opens for abt 3 weeks already, jus started learning all the new modules n up till now im still empty in the head...oh rite bdae coming yea 18 soon. few more days n im a half adults watever tat means....
wat am i going to do when i turn 18...hmmm, party till late at nite nah mum will kill me if i do tat, how abt finding a bf haha if anyone wans me tat is, i noe spend more time outside n go hme late at nite hahahahaha now tats wat i call a new me...ok i noe frm now on i shall be a little more crazy n open in doing stuff.
tis fri gonna have class bbq at our cher hse there, we call him lao ye haha cos he likes to boast tat in his hme his wife very traditional one thus call him lao ye at hme one lol super funny.
nxt wed gt a mariner's conference at psa vista, gt buffet dinner leh.
im so gonna start training my stamina to prepare for yr 3 nafar(dunno spelling correct or nt) cos xue bing n suxin say the 2.4m mus take one, if i dun start to train i will die during the test. waaaa if i start to do running maybe i can lost some weight arh haha......yea im abit excited run with me ppl.
many many ppl bdae coming soon wah nov babies, going to celebrate tgt nxt fri yea, im going to bring cam lah if nt everytime outing n gathering no pics like so sian as if we nv gone out tgt b4 haha mus gt more pics for memory keeping lol alright today the matter is nt getting any better tis tat there i also dunno wat to do liao. i guess like wat the quote says life is nt a bed of roses, u meet diff ppl, diff situation nv met b4, learn things through the hard way such as crying n getting angry...bt somehow y mus the matter go on to tis kind of stage where two person can no longer be friends jus cos of some incident, friendship is so fregile i can say. to be continue...(cos is late) wah long long no blog liao anw i decided tat from now one i will only blog on special stuff lah.

haiz today is a sad day lah y n j had a great disagreement today n somehow i feel tat im the one at fault and the main cause of the quarrel. even though they already nt getting along right from the start bt dunno leh feel tat is my wrong doing for speaking of the issue wit y making her misunderstand the issue then cause she wan to like speak up for me thinking tat i was being bully by j bt seriously i wasnt j is very gd to me she did nt bully or force me to do anything instead i was the one who decided to help her do the thing willingly one. heres jus a brief summary of the incident, abt a week ago j forgt to take her umbrella frm class so when we reached the nxt class, she wanted me to follow her to take back the umbrella bt cos honestly i was scared tat if i tell her straight tat i dun wanna go wit her and ask her to go herself she will angry wit me or think im a bad friend for nt following her to do such simple things whereas she always accompany me go diff place even she going to be late for class or other things. bt she is actually nt like tat like someone who gt angry over such things, is jus tat im always scared of small things like tis when it comes to friends lah cos im afriad of losing friends, bt the class was really quite far away so i pull her back n tell her nvm lah jus dun wan it lah bt she keep saying she only have one umbrella n it is quite exp. so i think think then told her nvm i will buy her a new and nicer umbrella n i promised...she say nvm one when i buy new one she will pay me the money for it bt is i keep saying nvm nvm no need u so nice to me a small umbrella is nthg. then the nxt few days i keep on forgeting to help her buy n she also abit anxious cos tis few days keep raining n her only umbrella is gone thus when today s say wanna go to jp to meet her bf i decided to follow her go to buy the umbrella, then y heard so she ask me y i wanna buy umbrella then stupid me jus say out everything to her witout thinking. she hear hear then say y mus i help j buy when the thing is nt i make lost one, tried expaining bt was too late y scolded j for the thing. j was confused like y y keep saying her so she also try to explain the issue bt like no use so j decided nt to talk anymore n listen to lesson. then y pass a single comment tat made j explod n thus the friendship broke...now j is sad for wat y had said...

anw all way long i really felt tat it is my fault n is depress for causing tis quarrel between the two of them, even though they already cannt gt along liao bt i made it worse and really sory for the incident

FOR THE TWO THEM IF THEY READ TIS, FOR Y IM REALLY HAPPY TAT U TRIED TO HELP ME BT SOMETIMES JUS DUN MAKE URSELF SEEM SO EVIL IN OTHER PPL EYES BY HELPING ANOTHER PERSON COS I NOE U R NT LIKE TAT, IS NT REALLY WORTH THE EFFORT.
N FOR J DUN BE SAD ANYMORE AND KEEP BLAMING URSELF COS IS ALSO NT REALLY UR FAULT I ALSO GT A BIT OF PART TO PLAY COS I WAS THE ONE WAN U TO DUN TAKE BACK UR THINGS ONE N DUN WORRY NO ONE THINKS U R WHO U THINK U R... alright finally decided to sit down n do a little blogging liao...haiz now is my sch holiday bt its so nt like a holiday cos need to study study, sch open is the term test liao leh thermo is like still half hanging, instrumentation is like dunno wat to study and etc. all the complains haha...last week decided to meet up wit friends to study bt could nt gt a good date where most ppl can make it ...finally manage to meet up today wit jiaying n yenru for study in sch lib i was guai one loh went early n study by myself while waiting for them to come, saw louis yuhan n wilson in the lib too...jiaying is super late n so is yenru bt okae lah they came in the end haha. 12 plus went to eat at fc3 wit jiaying, went bac to lib n saw tat sun ye n jonathan came liao haha very gd ask many many qns n im proud to say tat i understand abit of the thermo stuff esp. the refrigeration all the stupid h values which i cannt find. sun ye was like so poor thing have to keep teaching us things we were like sun ye how to do tis sun ye how to do tat...then after some time i rly dun feel like studying so went to lib level 1 to borrow some books to read gt a book abt china emperors, life of concubines n a comic abt dogs...sun ye is like so ******keep asking me for A-rated comics jus cos i like to read romantic love stories wit a little obscene pics haha hey is nt hentai okae i dun rly go for hentai cos its seems a little unreal leh wit big boobs n stuff OMG wat am i saying okae i admit i see them bt i mean who dun is quite common MOST IMPORTANTLY IM NT A HENTAI FREAK OKAE DUN LIKE THEM JUS SEE THEM FOR CURIOUSITY. today is mon haha fanny ask me to write one so lame loh lol. long time nv blog liao sian lah n lazy to do it even though i everyday also use the com one to play n study haha i can multitask loh *fake one* haha teacher starting lesson now im so nt listening. well even since sch starts im like so sad at time cos i dun understand anything taught in sch like the stupid applied thermo n instrumentation hoping to understand more as i try to learn them by myself. the teacher teach like nv teach like tat dun one i dun understand, the other just repeat wat is writen on the slides like we dunno how to read lol. lucky me the engineering maths nt so difficult to understand n also tis term nt many modules need to do calculations most r very theory based kind need to do alot of memorising. nxt week is holidays yeah so happy lol like real mus study loh cos after holidays is term test liao loh so lame.................mmit lesson now doing flash n dumb dumb clara mix up the min n hour hand haha so funny n her clock animation the hour hand move faster than the min hand haha super duper funny hahahahahahahahaha i shall laugh at her for a long time hahahahahahahaah.....okae gtg bb today sch officially starts bt im so on the off mode nt wanting to study yet...first day of sch thought it was going to be more slacky, how dump of me rite at the first module which is engineering maths the teacher alrly finish the topic one liao its like so a-maths n i think im so gonna die for tis module all the integrations ,trigo n inverse etc...wah all give back to the teacher liao. mus dig up my a-maths textbook liao ti revise...then had lunch wit clara fanny jiaying n yenru, the ones in the same class haha...xue bing then came wit durges to et wit us they r in different class n bing was like super sian in her class haha cos only gt a few ppl is from 1a one the rest r 1b ppl hu she dun know much...sad for her...anw aft tat went for mmit class some multimedia thingy one...sian like wat sit there for 4 hours plus wanna die liao. hope tis sem n the nxt sem n nxt nxt sem i can score well arh need to push up my gpa to at least a 3.5 leh.............i will jy lah GAMBATE ROSALYN okok i noe is like super duper long since i last update bt then again i did mention on tagboard tat i nt going to update haha...anw wan to update cos going to sch reopen liao and the holidays r like ultra long n boring did nt even do much for my holidays except for com com n com again now time pass quite quickly week aft nxt sch will start liao n guess wat our beloved 1a02 class is broken stupid seperate us into diff class so sad lah...well holidays did went out wit some friends like kbox wit elin, science centre snowcity trip wit jiaying n clara, class outing n tats all dun u think is so miserable n pathetic two days ago wanted to meet up wit some friends one bt things cork up n ended up cancelled wat a wet blanket was so happy one lo. nxt week thinking of having a girls outing thinking of finding jiaying xue bing clara sage yenru to go kbox haha girls nite out nono is dayout cos is in afternoon one nt nite......hope they can make it lo n nt another wet blanket again:). jus saw bing's blog haiz so envy she n clara had fun at mel camp nt like me stay n rot at home. i rly rly need to think of somethings to do it is my last week of holidays liao mus enjoy n play like siao b4 sch open n start to battle the workload comin my way.below gt some pics taken when went out wit friends random ones anw. today is like super sian one loh went to sch for bthm tutorial n guess wat nt only is there only 2 person there me n zul, the teacher is missing too went to his office a few times bt cant find himfeel so dumb dumb to go there...decide to go lib bt met sage n yenru at fc2 yeah so happy finally gt someone in sch pei me. eat lunch wit them then sage friend came so she went off to do her gems presentation...aft tat yenru wan to follow me to jp cos i gettin chocs for the class for valentine's day...stupid loh went there the choc i wan to buy sold out liao so need find again n finally found one i think everyone will like haha im nt sayin wat is it...bought wrappers too to pack the chocs...
today also saw a 25 random things abt me thingy on jody's facebook so decided to put onto blog
well here is it 25 random things abt me
1)i can be a little crazy sometimes when im high
2)i often feel sad tat no one talks to me
3)i dun like being alone
4)i rly like my current friends alot cos they change me
5)i like to laugh almost at anythings
6)i sometimes envy ppl hu have a bf
7)kboxing seems like the best friend gathering now
8)i hope ppl can see my inner nt outer
9)i daydream alot abt me in romance comics situation
10)i see things very positively
11)friends think im dumb n innocent
12)i sometimes feel left out
13)i have many secrets tat ppl dun noe abt even besties
14)im 17+ going 18 in few months time bt i have nv stay overnight for chalet b4
15)i dun like mum contoling me
16)i dun like to cry cos makes me feel dumb
17)i like being random
18)i wish to become more socialable like some ppl
19)i hate horror movies yet wan to watch
20)sometimes i feel so depress tat i feel like diein
21)my curfew is 8 plus at night bt i dun care now
22)i envy rich ppl, slim ppl, popular ppl
23)i love astronomy
24)i wish to have a smart brain
25)im scared of ghost
tats all some r like my wishes my thinkin n little more details abt me hiya totally forgt to update for the last few days haiz...busy lah or maybe is i lazy to write haha anw lets start frm last fri bah. last fri had crs lesson in the morning teacher talk alot nia a bit sian bt actually okae lah i quite enjoy the lesson dunno y haha then aft tat when to eat wit xue bing clara jiaying n some of the guys forgt hu liao anw aft lunch we went our own way bing clara n me went to borrow some dvds frm lib which is like our normal routine every fri haha...i borrowed memoirs of geisha n my super ex-gf then me n clara watch the memoirs of geisha. bing left at abt 11 plus to go jamond hse wit the rest i think or i nt so sure where she went lah...i left at abt 12. reached hme abt 1 plus then shower n slp for a while cos ltr wannna go pray grandma...aft praying dad sent me to sch cos i going to louis jazz band concert...me sage yuhan jamond wilson eugene n isaac went to the concert. haha was funny cos me n sage were like wow louis look so cool onstage while performing...he plays the bass look so diff. aft concert except for isaac the rest of us took mrt to clementi to have dinner, had ljs i could nt finish the meal haha so waste hor...during dinner me n sage talk a lot n chitchat din sit wit the guys cos the tables r 4 by 4 one then we gt 6 ppl so me n sage sit another table bused hme aft tat.........sat morning went to church wit mum then came hme abt 12 plus cos ltr in the afternoon need go swimming at first thought gt exam then so scared then went there teacher say nt today plew...lucky cos i still nt prepared for the backfloat loh bt now i okae liao...sun nthg much lah jus study in the morning then afternoon went to temple to pray...mon went to sch at 2.30 for bst test half n hour only nia so sian one thus decided to stay in sch to study wit friends me n sage stayed to abt 5 plus then went hme cos nthg to do liao oh n i gt a sp tee yeah...today had thermo lesson in the morning then had gems test in the afternoon at 5.15 stupid leh the timing. dun wanna waste money to take bus bac again so stayed in sch to study haha actually dun think i even studyin loh haha bought my lappy n wanted to watch the super ex-gf one yah i borrowed until now also haven watch haha in the end also nv watch cos yenru n jiaying keep askin me qns then aft tat also talk alot wit jiaying. gems test was a disaster i dunno how to do arhhhhh nvm over is over liao no point thinkin abt it okae shall stop here now bb

Labels: wat a long long long day for me=_='''

im so tired n shaggy today, had engineering drawing test today. strain my eys so much and used so much of my brain power hope i can pass well leh so scared now abit scared for the bthm semester paper coming up on the 20th feb hope i can do well so that my overall gpa can be gd maybe like 3.5 n above one is gd results i happy mah then daddy say going to buy new hp for me if i can gt at least 3.5 for tis sem yeah sp must study study hard..................so sian today cannt go yenru hse cos wanna exam liao mummy ks dun let me go. quite a lot of them went like xue bing sage isaac yuhan wilson etc. wonder wat they did there sian y do i always have to miss all the fun my friends have one can't mummy be a little more lenient on me my friends thay all going exams also still can go out have fun watch movie like nobody business where i have to stay at hme study like shit like tat...i mean nt say like playin all the time n no study lah maybe like today still cny go friend hse bai nian only mah like wat bing said how many times do u actually gt to visit friends hse for cny nt often rite!!! haiz dunno lah anw now lke tat also cannt do anything so wat to do study lah wait exams finish see i go crazy hahahahahaha.....im gonna work go out play watch movie shopping kbox arcade watever things can do i do lah muahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..............................oh ya meet my newest idol actually nt very new lah like him quite some time ago XIAO ZHU LUO ZHI XIANG super cutee n so shuai like omg rly like his personality

xiao zhhu


so cuteeeeeee

Labels: i jus wanna have fun occasionally n nt jus study lah tats all.........

today had a super short n sian 1 hour lesson in sch bthm...the class only like 7 out of the whole class of 20 students came 6 gals 1 guy hahaha funny think everybody still in cny mood all lazy to go lesson...bf lesson end jamond n sage came to our class everyone was like staring at the door when sage open it n she was like so stun haha funny..........aft lesson xue bing isaac jamond n sage went off to do their own thngs n i went hme cos need to bring my cat tommy to vet. reached hme abt 11 plus had lunch then went wit mummy n maid to vet. in the taxi tommy was like so scared tat he kept on crying for help me n my maid had to keep on comforting him haiz...arrived at the vet then tommy manage to cool down waited some time bf doc see him. he had a x-ray n urine test found dunno wat crystal thingy in his urine so doc ask us to buy special diet for him to eat high class nia 35 bucks leh one pack. oh ya n doc gave him an injection wooooooooo pain sia. go hme still need to feed medicine for him...reached hme at ard 5 plus like tat i was so tired so went for a nap aft shower...at night aft dinner was a nightmare cos need to feed tommy medicine super challenging me n my maid tried many ways to grap hold of tommy while mummy feed him wit a springe. he struggled like hell in the end we did wat the nurse did at the animal clinic using a towel to wrap him then feed. haiz see him like tat makes me heartbroken saddening too...anw aft tat i went to study bthm esams coming n im still nt prepared jyjy to me arh......okae continuing my studyies aft tis...

Labels: Hope my cat will get well soon so no need to suffer

woo long time no blog liao i was busy okae haha so many lame excuses one me anw today had gems lesson in the morning was a rly short one jus abt wat payback period things. teacher let us off early too as always today was 45 mins early last was one hour early loh then dunno wat to do waited a long time outside bthm class play game listen music etc. haiz so sian. today hungry so bought mac $2 meals which consists of macmuffin and ice milo. thermo lesson was okae bt i forgot my note AGAIN!!! so cannt do tutorial qns. then had lunch wit yenru n xue bing, dun wanna eat anything so had fruits in the end. practical aft tat welding omg i super dun like the tee thingy cos i cannt do it rite n i burnt myself when doing the chipping OUCH!!! pain sia some more is hot one haiz pain pain n pain...bused hme aft tat, reached hme abt 6 plus i think...oh ya n gems teacher also gave our exam timetable arh...i wan exams to end faster so can play more hahaha bt was lucky leh tis semester only one sem paper n tat is bthm woohoo cannt wait for holidays hahahahahahahahaha..........

Labels: After tis sem new year new class haiz feel so sad im so comfatable wit the current friends n now wat breaking us up into different classes i dun wan :'(

haha totally 4gt to update is a new year alr....time passes so fast n its alr 2009 wow...anw since im late to update i also wwill still update haha, heres a little list of my past n wat comes in the future

things i will miss in 2008

-the 16th years young me

-great holidays wit pals in sec, dun think will meet often liao

-all the free time cos going to year 2 soon n will have less fun time

-etc...lah dunno wat else liao a lot lah


things i regret

-nt finding time for my old friends

-nt studying well in sem 1

-nt saving enough money

-nt being firm abt some decisions made

-also etc.. more more


things i wish to acheive in 2009

-high gpa maybe 3.5 n above

-hope i can slim down more n swim more so tat i can save myself haha

-hope to save more money

-gt more printed tees cute cute one
-etc...etc more more n more


well these are jus some small things tat had happen, wishing to happen and may happen one day so life jus has to go on. things missed can be put back in life, things regreted should be used as lesson learnt and wishes should be tried wit all my best to acheive. Here wishing everyone a late happy new year yeah...iljimae iljimae i love the show, lee jun ki is so handsome n cuteeeeeee.........bt then watch the show rly very angry sometimes cos all the gd ppl always mus die then all the bad ppl still live happily haiz........bt then when lee jun ki became the iljimae he was so omg cool n the outfit rocks haha.the ost all very sad one i like the song name 화신 i think translate is hua xin in chinese haha super sad everytime i hear i remember the scene where he cry cos he could nt save his sis and saw his sis die right in front of him whao my whole heart was like so hurt to see him like tat, tat scene he rly act it very well. i jus bought the CD so watch to like ep 10 already. im still watching bt then haha i so desperate so went to see the last ep n was like y he nv wit any of the girls in the show, he remained as a mystery to the world, ohhh im so gonna watch the season 2 if there is any. read somewhere tat there will be season so ya happy bt i hope they use the same actors again esp lee jun ki hahahahahahahaha
iljimae hmm...jojo ask me to do tis quiz thus here i go haha

1)What have u been doing recently
--holiday so work work n work

2)Do u ever turn ur cellphone off
--no, except if no battery liao

3)What happen at 10am today
--erh...breakfast cum lunch haha

4)When did u last cry
--hmm...forgt liao leh long nv cry liao

5)Believe in fate/destiny
--well most likely bt believe can change them

6)What do u wan in ur life now
--gt gd results for test n exams

7)Do u tend to make relationship complicated
--nope

8)Are u wearing anything u borrowed frm someone
--nope

9)What was the last movie u caught
--erm...madagascar 2

10)Does the person noe that u like him/her
--nopey

11)Who always makes u laugh
--classmates in 1b02

12)Do u speak langauge other than english
--yap...chinese, a little french n a little jap too

13)Favourite websites
--websites that can watch movies n dramas n anime n read manga

14)What are u doing tmw
--working

15)What do u think u are like
--erm...human

16)Who will u choose to die wit
--i dunno leh see first loh

17)Where have u been today
--at home watching shows

18)What gamedo u play often
--dressing up n cooking n psp games

19)Who are u missing right now
--well i so wanna see my old friends

20)If u have to choose between love n friend, which will u choose
--its a tough question, depends

21)What are u doing right now
--doing tis quiz n listening to my friends blog music

22)Which primary sch are u frm
--rulang pri

23)Name 3 colours that u like
--pink, sky blue n lime green

24)What emotion do u like to show
--smiley ^^

25)What is life to u
--life is full of mysteries

26)If u hav something troubling u, what will u do
--brainstorm over it

27)Who did u last chat on msn today
--aye...no one

28)Who do u admire the most
--for now is aaron in pi li mit

29)Which month were u born in
--nov

30)How are u feeling right now
--anxious, cos tis quiz is soooooooo long

31)What is the time now
--4.17pm

32)What kind of person do u think the one who tag u is
--siao siao one

33)What colour would u use to dye ur hair
--i dun like to dye, highlight maybe brown

34)Why are u doing this quiz
--friend ask to do one

35)What do u do when u are moody
--stare into blank space

36)At which stage do u want to get married
--before 30 i guess

37)Who is more important to u
--i dunno yet

38)If today is the last day of ur life what would u do
--spent time wit everyone i love n care

39)Who is the person/are the people u trust the most
--my parents

40)Do u believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain
--well i do n wish to see one too

41)If u have a dream to come true, what would it be
--having a rich n handsome n love me alot bf

42)What is ur goal for this year
--nt for this year cos the year ending liao, bt i dowish to lost weight successfully

43)Do u believe in eternal love
--do i have a chance to believe

44)What feeling do u love most
--to be truly loved by someone who i love

45)Do u really think is global warming now
--yes i do n i wish for it to stop

46)What feeling do u hate the most
--when i find out getting cheated

47)Do u like to do quizzes
--i do cos sometimes it tell something abt myself

48)Do u believe in god
--yeah...

49)What do u think is the most important thing in ur life
--everything

50)What will u bring when u fight
--my courage

51)What have u regretted doing in ur whole life
--nt studying well for some exams

52)What do u do if no one cared for u any longer
--be alone myself n do things i like

53)What do u do when ur gf/bf two-time u
--think abt the reason for him/her to two-time me

54)How do u feel now
--a little bored n hungry


haha well now i finally end the quiz so relief

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