Just Be Yourself

Thursday, April 08, 2010 | 8:15 PM | 0 comments

today is so jialat onboard EMAS. the vessel is like super dangerous lah. mainly is cos its a newly built vessel, then all the equipments n cables are nt installed yet, so is lying ard the place. the moment i step onboard all the way to the engine rm i had knocked my helmet ard the place for like 20 over times sia, like so comical only. once i went in to a place then nv see the ceiling knocked into it, then i wanted to see wat i knocked onto then the nxt moment i knocked into another place. it goes like ping pang arh, look up ping pang arh again haha. oh n also almost electrocuted myself. cos wanted to climb down a high platform then due to my 'long' legs, cannt reach the ground so i decided to jump a little, unluckily i lost my balance abit n to save myself frm falling i immediately hug onto a pillar wit many cables connected, wah is scary. im like a hazard to the ppl loh until in the end my supervisor walk infront of me then keep turning ard ask me 'u ok' n 'take it nice n slowly'. he so scared i fall into a hole or injured myself. tmw goin bac to the vessel again, hope i rly dun fall into holes haha.

anw was unhappy jus nw due to some personal reasons. feel so irritated loh. i realised tat the one thing i totally hate n despise most abt human character would be nt paying attention to someone when he/she is talking to u. is freaking irritating lah. if the things i said does nt giv u any interest then let me noe, i will nt continue wit it de, i rly hate it when u dun have any interest in the topic n yet u act like u do. then when i talk halfway u do other things n even talk to other ppl, then when i ask r u listening u say u r, i ask wat i said u give me the shitty answer of one or two words. frm the way u answer i can tell straight away tat u r nt even listening to me. then wats the point, y waste everyones time when u r nt paying any attention to wat i say. i feel like an idiot saying all the stuff laughing myself when u dun even bother. it is only basic courtesy to giv the speaker eye contact when they r talking nt doin other things.

even if u r interested jus tat u might nt be able to giv full attention, u can also say it out rite. jus giv a signal like sry im quite busy nw maybe we can continue ltr. tats it full stop, no qns asked n u can jus go do watever u nd to do. is all comes down to basic respect ok. i dun care abt the relationship cos no matter wat respect is still needed. like doesnt mean u r my mum means u can dun respect me or u r my grandparents means u can giv me the shitty attitude.

everyone is equal, we all have feelings n nd respect also. im a human also, i nd oxygen food n water to survive n so do u. so wat diff do we have between each other. i dun think is much of a diff rite. bt wit tis y am i treated like dirt when it comes to respect. i dun deserve ur respect jus cos im a junior to u....or more simply im nt human to u. even animals have animals right, so wat nw i guess i cannt even be compared to an animal. if it rly continue in such way i guess i can jus giv up. enough wit the telling u stuffs attitude since u dun share the joy n concentration of the conversation. i giv up man seriously. im giving up soon cos tis is nt like the 1st or 2nd time, every single time is like tis so i think im reaching the limits soon.

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