sianx...sch jus started for a few days n im feeling so scared alrdy. is like jus by looking at the notes it makes me so stress. past few days had been researching on uni stuff, hoping it may help. i rly rly wan to go overseas n study cos its the only way i can be free n independent frm my parents. i wan to become indepedent. wells rite nw i can only study n pray hard to achieve gd results so as to be able to gt into the uni i wan. oh man feeling so bu she de. aft 6 wks of itp, im like finally released frm the company. BT I MISS EVEYONE THERE NW. so many ppl i miss loh like all the various managers, asst managers, supervisors n workers which i had make friends wit. they r all rly nice ppl i shld say. yesterday was rather busy cos is the last day then nd settle alot things suchs as giving gifts n thk u cards and all proper doc for release frm the company. keep running ard the place loh haha. took many many pics wit the dept ppl esp the EHS dept. lots of craps n jokes at the EHS dept loh. well might consider goin bac there in the future maybe haha. i told one of them there tat i wan to be a PJM of the company, bt they say no nd to even think abt it cos the company dun hire female PJMs. sadded nia hahahahaha. bt oh wells, glad tat the 6 wks were nt rly wasted cos i rly learnt alot of things n visit many vessels so shiok haha. im so so so slpy. tis few days keep rushing all the report slp only at 12plus onwards. seriously im so gonna slp soon. nw still thinking how to write the thk u letters for the company. wah so fast loh, tmw last day at drydocks le. aft these 6 wks of attachment, i kinda like drydocks loh. i mean the ppl r all super nice and friendly, keep saying hi and how r u whenever u go. guess i judged the company wrongly b4. its nt as bad as i thought it is b4. saw many operations which i dun think i will gt the chance to see easily. so cool haha. ok goin bac to thk u letters. its official, i finally poped the heartaching qns n gt the ans. im bac to single n it will remain like tis till the day i think im ready. frm tis incident i learnt alot n had woken up also frm dreamland. all focus r on studies nw. i finally cleared my mind of all my desires n only wans to study well. in the future if i die n go to hell, i will understand cos i cause so much hurt to him. i jus hope for his welfare n wish can continue his life n move on like i do. im sad too bt i guess the sadness is far greater for him. frm nw one i wan to remind myself of the mistake i made b4 tat cause so much hurt for both of us n will think twice b4 i act. today is so jialat onboard EMAS. the vessel is like super dangerous lah. mainly is cos its a newly built vessel, then all the equipments n cables are nt installed yet, so is lying ard the place. the moment i step onboard all the way to the engine rm i had knocked my helmet ard the place for like 20 over times sia, like so comical only. once i went in to a place then nv see the ceiling knocked into it, then i wanted to see wat i knocked onto then the nxt moment i knocked into another place. it goes like ping pang arh, look up ping pang arh again haha. oh n also almost electrocuted myself. cos wanted to climb down a high platform then due to my 'long' legs, cannt reach the ground so i decided to jump a little, unluckily i lost my balance abit n to save myself frm falling i immediately hug onto a pillar wit many cables connected, wah is scary. im like a hazard to the ppl loh until in the end my supervisor walk infront of me then keep turning ard ask me 'u ok' n 'take it nice n slowly'. he so scared i fall into a hole or injured myself. tmw goin bac to the vessel again, hope i rly dun fall into holes haha. oops i shldnt be here right nw at tis moment blogging. im suppose to be doing my report, haha im super easily distracted. today quite happy cos i gt bac my logbk frm asst manager of mechanical dept, Ramesh. i gt an A yeah!!! hope tis wk can gt also bt dun wan put expectations too high. time rly flies, so fas im jus left wit one more wk for itp. for the last wk gonna be in EHS dept, hope the ppl is nice. shld be ok lah cos noe a few ppl frm the dept alrdy. the office as usual is still very cold, im freezing. brrrrrrrrrrrrr.........oh n tis few wks i found out something weird abt myself. everyday frm 11am till 12 noon n 1pm to 2.30pm my body is auto shut down . i will feel like damn slpy n cannt seem to concentrate on things happening ard me. abit dangerous arh, ltr kena hit by things or others then jialat. alright my xp is officially down and gone. had param over at my hse today to help me check out alrdy. sadded lah. bt oh wells looking on the bright side i had upgraded to windows 7. the features r quite cool for windows 7 n its rly alot faster than vista. exploring ard it changed diff settings. haha omg im like so excited over it i think im goin crazy. ok im goin to continue my exploration work.
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