jus finish watchin the last ep of zhong ji san guo. no more san guo to chase aft le so sad...bt the ending is nice lah n funny too laugh like crazy at the ah biao sao part hilarious loh.

阿标嫂名言:

阿标啊, 我对不住你啦
我的人是你的
我的心是赵云的
我的灵是关羽的
我的魂是刘备的
我的命是吕布的
但是现在我啊
就要变成曹会长的
召唤兽 electronics paper today is nt tat bad, i guess i can say i've gt much confident in it. hope i can do well. today dunno y felt rly tired even in the morning. went to sch at 1030 to meet clique to study again. i felt like a piggy man cos we keep eating alot tidbits while studying, seriously i think im gonna gt fatter. finished paper at 5 plus today, suxin asked me to accompany her to ion to buy her shoes wit sage. didnt find it in the end. had dinner at far east plaza, wanton mee. grandnanny sage treated me to some turkish ice cream. yummy > <. mrted hme at 7 plus. yay im so happy now cos the 2 scariest paper is over le. nxt wk gonna have a gathering too. dun worry be happy is wat im thinking nw for mine papers. itp starting soon too sianx...planning to keep mine wkends for friends gatherings n dates if there is gonna be. im dead...i screwed up mine emec paper today. hate mineself for forgettin the formula during the exam. n MR ANG LER HWI cheated our feelings. he bluff us abt the section B qns loh. i rmb like so many qns yet only like 1 out of all the qns came out during the exams, shit man. i think im gonna fail mine emec le, no hope le lah *cry*. i think mine gpa is also gonna drop tis sem le, mine hard earned 3 n above is gonna be gone soon. gone wit the wind yay...im so depressed now, i nd a hug-_-... shit man mine hi card $$ is running low, in urgent nd for a top up soon. guess is all due to mine massive msg-ing to him tis few wks. i cannt believe it man, our msg to each other including his n mine total up to 1000 plus frm the eve of cny till now. OMG!!! bt it felt rly gd to be able to talk to him almost everyday. bt i still wanna be able to go out soon tgt even if its jus for a dinner.

so minor issues cause me to think again. somehow im feeling rly sick n tired of being in constant fear of mine parents finding out abt mine relationship. i fear so much everyday thinking abt consequences if one day they find out n do things to stop it. im actually envy of friends being able to be wit their other partner like nobody's business. is like y cannt mine parents be more open to tis kind of issues rather than staying at their old fashion thinkings of no bf before finishing studies. although they say parents will nv cause any harm to their children, bt sometimes unintentionally they jus cause it.

im 18 alrdy n i dun wan to remain like a noob towards relationship up to 21. i also wan to learn to make major decisions mineself instead of having to ask mine parents every single time. im like a caged bird in the palms of mine parents having to resort to lies n secret means to fly out once awhile. i felt tat somethings mine friends said makes sense too. like the nd to experience life and meeting wit obtacles. jus by teaching me verbally is nth compared to real life experience. for now i felt is time i nd to learn how to be independent. ok maybe nt yet cos exams here soon. maybe aft exams when i start to do mine itp. if i continue to be in tis state, i think im gonna suffer worse in the future, no nd to wait for the time i start work, onces i enter overseas uni i will meet all kinds of things alrdy. jus imagine me being a wild animal taken well care of since birth, given food daily, having a gd life n then one day suddenly released to the wilderness at a certain age having to learn how to hunt mineself, i could say i will nt survive. so in order to noe how to handle any problems coming mine way, i nd to break free n learn. ok im so nt suppose to be bloggin bt im so so so tempted to use the com. tats y i say i cannt stay at hme to study, sure will gt distracted by somethings. nvm anw today went to sch at 1030 to meet the clique to study tgt. everyone is late man im always so early, haha. studied emec today, managed to noe some qns le yays!!! lunched at fc1 vegetarian food woooo. i think im goin to gt even fatter tis few days le, kept eatin while studyin-_-...then at 4 plus suxin they all nd go work so we ended our study session. went to lib wit sage to watch dvd. watched the skeleton key, scary movie. sage super funny, kept removin her headphones cos scared of the music. mine was better gt volume control one so no nd to take off, jus reduced the volume haha. overall think is a rather nice movie, wasnt expecting the twist at the bac...story wasnt rly abt ghost, more of a supernatural thriller, u noe abt voodoos n sacrifices etc. bused hme at abt 6 plus. im tired dun feel like doin anything le nia. i wanna watch percy jackson, everyone go watch le left me nia. xue bing say wan watch wit me again haha...so many movies i wan watch loh bt always no chance sianx. anw i finally won 2 rds of mine itouch mahjong game woohooo, zhi mo leh so happy.

a list of movies i wanna watch:
-percy jackson changed mine blogskin again...is so cute haha. today morning did a little studyin of emec, i kinda noe a few chapters le yeah...i decided also to give up chapter G. i will nt learn anything frm tis chapter cos there r too many formulas to rmb. today n tmw r the time left where i might use the comp le. aft tat thurs onwards im like gonna chiong all mine modules, goin to sch to study wit friends... chiong yaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! everyone seem so busy unlike me so free haha...started to do some studyin...emec is the shit man. bt im thinkin tat i jus nd to rmb the various formulas will do, dun rly nd to noe all the details in the chapter. decided to take the risk to trust mine cher fully by leaving out all the formulas which the cher said will nt come out in the exams. mr ang u better dun cheat mine feelings arh...

looking through mine young photos jus now makes me feel so old now. mine youth is slowly drifting away frm me, nonooooooo. ok im being dramatic, nvm im jus tryin to find some entertainment for mineself. bt seriously time rly flies, it feels only like yesterday tat im still in primary sch n now in like 2 months time im gonna be in yr 3 of poly, wow!!! anw now i jus hope to quickly end the agony of exams. oh n did i mention b4 im doin mine itp soon in march. gt into drydock world wit suxin in tuas area, pay 440/mth. shitty man so little, bt i guess is the experience tat is more important. hope i can perform well in the company.

edited @ 19.29
i jus created a super cool sentence haha...direct references frm a chinese sentence
"It's always better to believe in something which might not happen, than to not believe in something which might happen"
ok i noe the english isnt tat gd bt as long as it makes sense n ppl understand can alry im so shag man...kena torture by mine 2 crazy cousins....they like 2 hyper monkeys loh. they can jump on u, drag u ard places, make u run ard to chase aft them. mine dumb guy cousins all also ps me wit the 2 of them while they play dai di happily...*death stare* them. luckily my parents decided to go hme early so i can run away haha gd luck to them le. i majiam like mother in training looking aft the 2 small one. they like to play outside the hse so i gt to like run ard behind them to ensure their safety. die man kids r so hyper, i think im gettin old le nia. gosh i feel old tmw gonna see them again, mus try to be strict wit them haha, like i said mother in training... wooo last day of workshop today. finished up patching work of the pipe n see cher do some other welding then end le. is like so so so early, usual timing was 1pm end bt today we were let off at 1130, shiok man!!! the workshop was super funny seriously comical...did grinding work n those who did it seem to enjoy it. jj is like super dangerous, he was suppose to let the sparks frm the grinding to hit the metal wall bt somehow as he did it jus shoot towards our direction. super hilarious when everyone was like jumpin ard n running away screaming n shouting at jj. somemore he cannt hear cos he is wearing the ear muffs, basket!!! aiya always nv video or take pics of funny moments shitty. nxt time mus prepare cam n hold ard wit me le to capture fun times. suxin so unlucky kena the sparks...went to lib aft tat cos i haven finish doin the workshop report. finished report then went to fc5 to eat pizza hut...the 4 gals(suxin, sage, xue bing n me), we r crazy ppl man, all sick le still wan eat pizza hut, haha. now i think we all gt to take medi le so as to enjoy cny nia...

today is a hell of a gd time...lao ye gave us all angpaos n mr lim(electronics cher) gave us each a big box of sweets. at first when mr lim took out the sweets we thought is a few box share among everyone. bt then as he take out more we were like "everyone one box???" kind of face, haha. super funny. everyone is like so high n crazy today in class. did the same old funny trick in class, taking photos of ppt slides n uploading then in fb, tagging everyone. somehow feel tat our current class is nt so bad aft all. loads of fun n laughters. at least tat is one thing which lightens up everyday's boring lectures. crazy bunch i can say...

anw lesson ended at 12 today, went to crash xue bing's maths class. their class aircon seriously is foc one, full blast. me n suxin were both shaking at the bac of the class even though we gt our jackets on. then had lunch n went to their thermo class too. went to lib aft tat to slack ard while xue bing they all went for their mmit test. sage came ard 3 plus. wanted to study bt aft awhile didnt had the mood to continue so went to watch finish the horror movie tgt wit sage n suxin. wasnt rly scary, jus tat the sound effect made me jump a few times. bused hme at ard 5. today is a happy day. fanny n rong li's bday. morning meet suxin to go imm buy their cake. frm four leaves one. omg its so so so sinful, full of choco cream haha. finally we can sabo fanny bac. we cut a super big piece for her. both bday boy n girl gt large portion of the cake. i was so stm loh forgt to make the card for fanny so in the end gt to buy one is damn exp lah. bt is alright so long as everyone enjoy the fun...surprised fanny n rong li as the whole class sang happy bday song for the both of them. ok lah actually rong li is more surprised than fanny haha. bt still fanny is touched^^. another thing would be somehow things looks like its turning better today. hope everything will be smooth sailing.

sianx im still struggling over emec. bt oh well at least i manage to fill in the empty blanks of the notes so tat i can study.......jy to me for mine exams. i hate emec, seriously. its so fucking irritating. jus when i thought i noe how to do a chapter, i cannt seem to gt any correct answers for the tutorials arhhh sickening. exam week is slowly coming day by day n im still nt prepared for it. tis is shitty man. totally bored, maple is kinda hooking. gonna slp bye! workshop today. quite fun took a few pics while doin the welding. me n jonaton is so slow. everyone finish all the welding we still doin haha. i felt proud of mineself cos aft break all of a sudden i did the butt joint rly well. finished at abt 12 plus. suxin they all so nice help me n jonaton clean up our working area. firman took mine hp to play. he took so many pics n videos of the class nia still ask me put in fb n tag everyone haha. then bused hme aft tat. tired nia nd to gt more slp things happens today. smehow in a short day time, many things change. jus hope everyone can jus pull through it n stay tgt. i noe is tough bt smetimes we jus nd to forgive n forget. i dunno abt the others bt i feel bad for keeping things so long frm ppl. now we seem to drift further frm one another. actually, i can say tat things r nt rly tat bad either. initially i didnt tell anyone too, everyone jus slowly guessed by themselves abt it n i thought u might too one day. i guess i was wrong. i shldnt keep mum abt it waiting for u to find out urself. i can understand if u r goin to ignore me in sch. there r things we cannt change, wats done cannt be undone, we jus nd to live wit it n let go if nd. i dunno, i still hope we can stay as friends aft tis incident.
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