didnt noe wat to write abt, im feeling dazed now

闹钟铃响是一天美的开始,
电话铃声是朋友的问候,
门铃响起是亲人平安归来,
手机铃声是我虔诚的祝福与关怀.
祝愿大家生活每天都充满着喜悦. i was totally broke today, no $$ for lunch for today n tmw...luckily clara lent me 5 bucks for today n tmw. had long chats n story telling at fc today while eating. all theses talks rly set me thinking alot. is rly amazing how time flies. its been 2 yrs since all of us entered poly. can u believe it by april of nxt yr we will all graduate. we r only left wit abt a yr wit each other, studying in the same class, having lunch at fc tgt. rly love tis bunch of pals as we go through each single day tgt. we talk, we laugh, we have fun, we celebrate each others bday, we ka jiao one another, we comfort each other in sad times n etc. although there can be disagreements here n there, i truly believe tat nth is unsolveable between friends. im nt sayin tis to hint anything, jus feel like writing my thoughts down. ever wondered, can we stay like tis in 10 yrs, maybe even 20 yrs to come? will we be able to gt tgt like tis in the future aft we graduate, as we begin our individual lifes aft poly? we will definitely meet one another as we set our foot in the working society cos we r all working in the same line. bt will we become competitors where we had to compete wit one another over businesses? well if it rly happens there is no other choice too i guess.

yenru talked abt her conversation wit her friend alex where they promised to attend each other's wedding in the future. ppl say to nv make such a promise to each other cos the future cannt be predicted, so is best nt to make empty promises. however, i think differently cos without all tis little promises to one another, i dun think is easy to keep the friendship lasting as long as we wan. at least wit such promises, we will try our very best to maintain contact wit each other. sending regards to one another no matter where we r in the future is a little promise i believe i can give. since technology is so gd nowadays, we will definitely be able to organise outings n gatherings to catch up wit one another's life. PINKY PROMISE!!!

didnt noe y i suddenly feel like writing tis, bt oh well, lets enjoy each other's company to the fullest through the 1 yrs plus left. swimming at spgg wit yenru, xue bing n suxin today. is super fun, even though the pool is a little small. swam for abt 1 hr plus. xue bing taught me a little bit abt freestyle. super funny when i tried to jump up frm the water to sit on the pool edge. tried so many times then always half way cannt hold on, drop inside water again haha. went to shower at abt 2. shld see our faces when we saw the jacuzzi in the women changing room. we were like wow when we saw it. went into the hotter one, arh so cosy. then aft tat transfer to the cold one, is super funny cos the water is damn freaking cold loh. suxin was like the only one who manage to sit rite in. the other 3 of us were shaking frm the coldness haha. only our legs were in while we slowly test the water. we couldnt stay for more than 1 min haha. shower aft tat.


oh n today i used the same kind of bag as suxin, everyone ask me y am i using her bag, haha.
one more thing fanny tortured my xiao qi today arhh...n guess wat happen, she pulled out my xiao qi's anthena, poor xiao qi. suxin help me sew bac...fanny is so evil haha ><


spgg changing room





















what ms see xue bing did during the seminar suxin came my hse today haha, suxin r u honoured, u r the first poly friend to come my hse haha...ps arh my hse look alot like storeroom, wit so many things. we chat alot n did ship stab qns. send suxin to bus stop at 4 plus. glad tat u enjoy ur short stay in my hse. sian wanted to pull clara come one then she say she lazy-_-'''.

sem paper coming soon, im like so dead. still hanging at midair for emec. arhhh...my cat is so noisy(random)...nvm im bored... awww.....i so wanna catch the movie hachiko now. the bloody trailer made me cry><. so many movies i wanna watch man, everyone lets go watch hachiko tgt. highly recommend the show.
i have a soft spot for animal movies man esp those kind which depicts a lot abt life story, friendship, loyalty n love. previously watch one called 10 promises to my dog, god how sad can it be, i cried almost the whole movie. looking for more movies like tis to watch. omg wats wrong wit me man...tis is like the 2nd time tat i walk out of a breadtalk without paying for the bread><. n i only realised it aft for like 15 mins, lucky the cashier girl noes me when i ran bac to pay her. haha ps. today i was totally freaked out by the lucky draw box. they only had the box filled up to 1/4 so i had to reach my hands in quite deep to dig it. lol man i was scared by the styroform balls in the box, screamed on the spot, everyone was giggling at my reaction, arhh so ps><.

yay i finally finished my csw cover letter, took me freaking long to complete. i think my english is deproving, cannt even write a simple cover letter within one day...well slpy bb workshop today is fun...lots of teamwork n laughter in the workshop while doin the jobs. our grp gt a rather small pump to do bt looks can be deceiving man. the pump is small bt diff to do nia. gt an accident also, scare me to death. was turning the expander bt turned too fast n hard the whole head came off, broken end shot xianyang on the lips, ouch!!! bt xianyang n me can say is even le cos once he accidently injured my finger in workshop so now i kinda play a part in his injury also cos i was the one holding the handle while he did the turning haha. so yay we're even. oh bt im glad all 3 gals r in the same grp today yay!!!

fanny n suxin ka jiao me again today nia, say alot of things make me blush like an apple><. suxin still say i bully her. where gt is suxin bully me one.... boring boring...nth to do at hme, dun feel like studying.
emec lesson, cher was talking to us abt the overseas itp program. he talk for like almost the whole lesson, only had like 15 mins of work examples doing haha. waited for xue bing for lunch aft tat. gt a dumbdumb hello frm charlton, haha. he was like hello here hello there then in the end added a hello to the 4 gals...funny><, poor thing gt a hit on the head by suxin, pain? haha.

ate at fc1, curry chicken noodles for me. went to lib to do csw assignment, sian took me so long to finish. n the stupid words made my box so big cannt edit to make it smaller, then in the end nd to make a new doc. csw lesson at 3. ended early bt fanny they all wanna ask cher qns so we hang ard in class crap-ing while waiting. all the crap-ings were hilarious...sunye did a rly funny action, nv video down lah, is freaking funny. bused hme ard 5 plus...

crap-ing wit suxin n kevin online now... wat the fuck man, does money rly mean so much to u...its only a few bucks. if tis little amount of money can make u feel so bu she de den dun give. i can pay for it mineself using mine own HARD EARNED MONEY!!! seriously hu the fuck is able to sustain n use $18 of call value for 6 months, some ppl maybe bt sry im nt tat some ppl...is like wat the hell im like how old alrdy, 18 n u still wan to do things like keeping track of my phone bills, checking on my phone. so glad tat u dun noe how to use my phone. im old enough n i gt my own life n circle of friends. saying things like having too much social activities, spending so much on msg-ing is so freaking annoying. den wat? u wan me to kao zhi bi let u see isit. if one day i rly become like tat be prepare, i can tell u tat u wouldnt be happy either.

i had enough of all tis kind of money talks n all the restrictions. if u think im nt thrifty enough so be it, if u think im starting to be rebellious so be it, i dun give a damn anymore cos u nv seem to have faith in me. u can make conclusions witout even knowing anything. tis few day u had shown me ur blackest face, passing sarcastic remarks n telling me off randomly witout a bloody reason. im nt ur fucking anger bag whereby u can anyhow put ur anger on. if ur're angry wit ur own friends, ur own things, dun come to me n crash everything on me. its rly frustrating tat aft getting the random scolding frm u, u expect me to smile happily when u feel happy. frm now on watever u say i will listen, bt whether or nt its gonna stay in my brain is up to me to decide. im so looking forward to a time where i can jus gt out of tis bloody situation n live a life of my own. looking forward to overseas studys...

aft sch today, slacked at concourse wit xue bing they all while waiting for kevin to come. his words had prob so nd to borrow my lappy to do his reports. left lappy wit him while me suxin yenru n bing mrted down to marsiling to buy new future jeans n shorts. mrted bac to je aft tat to meet kevin to gt bac my lappy. accompany him wait for his gf. slacked at je lib while waiting, crap alot. went hme at abt 6 plus... given permission by the victim, i hereby blog abt the online harassment my dear friend encountered. hilarious issue man.(name will nt be mentioned for the privacy n welfare of my friend, haha)

random indian guy added him on msn, chat wit him n asked him for............s*x, haha...deleted the guy frm his msn contact bt the guy added him bac again. tis time ask him for something worse(nt gonna elaborate)>< jus so gross...finally tis friend is smart enough to block n delete him tis time round. he said tis "omg, knn, f**kin disgusting. a guy n hes a indian n IM RACIST" abit no link lah funny bt my poor friend had to encounter such a thing online. ewwwwwwww....... sexual harassment online. the internet is seriously a dangerous place bt we still continue using it daily. how much $$ ppl earn through the net.

nth much for today, the regular lectures n tutorials etc. ended sch early as usual for tues. went to crash xue bing class for thermo n mmit. been so long since i last attended a wedding dinner. finally went for my tuition teacher's big day yesterday at orchard hotel. high class...i love the place man, great ballroom, great ambience, great seats. bt most importantly GREAT FOOD!!!! haha. they say a lady is most beautiful on her wedding day as the bride, its so true...sharon is gorgeous n her husband is looking handsome too. rly happy for her. rly tired though, the dinner ended at abt 11 plus. my mum n i reach hme at 12 plus. i mineself slp at 1 plus, today in sch im so slpy i dunno wat the teachers were teaching(oops)...

sianx...now gt to start doing csw assignment, i totally forgotten abt it. lucky suxin reminded me today in class><. today i gt new nicks frm xue bing they all, so weird. bing calls me winter haha cos today they said the shirt i wear is like for winter. suxin n clara calls me slow baby cos of the vitagen competition wit clara. can u believe it im slower then ms laggy chew haha...omg such a weird name.



old song i gt hooked on

Take me to your heart-Micheal learns to rock

Hiding from the rain and snow
Trying to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat
So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you girl
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is
Haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true
They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is
Be my guiding star
It's easy
Take me to your heart
Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend
Don't need too much talking
Without saying anything
All I need is someone
Who makes me want to sing
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is
Haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true
They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is
Be my guiding star
It's easy
Take me to your heart
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is
Be my guiding star
It's easy
Take me to your heart

heres another top 10 list of things i LOVE!!!

1st: CHOCOLATE!!!(n also something link wit choco><)
2nd: my friends
3rd: itouch n phone n psp n etc(all my electronics stuff)
4th: guigui n xiao qi
5th: my kitties
6th: teenage mag
7th: ice cream
8th: green tea
9th: comics/manga
10th: slping in lib wit xiao xue, xiao jie n xiao ling. xiao xin jus left. haha sian nth much to do here. wanna do some serious work then in the end talk n talk n play game. xiao jie his stomach dunno gt worm or wat nia can eat 5 hotdog buns...now he slping haha funny face. me, xiao xue n xiao ling gonna play monopoly cards nt the board game. haha complicated nia. bt it seems fun haha.

edited @ 5.49pm
suddenly felt like writing top 10 things i fear, inspiration by xiao jie haha

top of the list is: GHOST!!!
2nd: lizards
3rd: cockroaches
4th: frogs/reptiles
5th: creepy crawlies eg. worms
6th: rats
7th: thunder
8th: being alone
9th: fierce ppl
10th: school... today is shopping day haha so happy n tired. went to bugis wit xuebing, yenru n suxin to buy things. i spent the most loh witdraw $150...die no money le. bought 2 pair of new future jeans n a pair of heels to match my dress for sun the wedding dinner. walk walk ard bugis street.

mrted down to orchard aft tat cos xue bing they all wanna buy clothes frm the cotton on at wisma. the 4 of us r rly funny while choosing the inner beauty things. they hang them so packed on the shelves, every time we take one, another will drop down. super hilarious man. abt 5 plus me n suxin take mrt to jp while xue bing n yenru went off. mummy bday today, dunno wat to gt her so in the end gt a small bouquet of flowers for her. exp nia...bt nvm lah, for mummy one cannt complain.

jus now i jus did the stupidest thing ever. wanted to replace my screen protector for my itouch, aft sticking nicely the first side, i pull out the 2nd side. i was like super happy thinking tat i was so pro at it tat there is nt a single air bubble on the screen. threw the rubbish into the bin witout realising tat actually i had pull out the whole protector. dumb man, only realise aft like 5 mins. had to dig the bin for the protector loh-_-''' my protector is all dirty now. use alcohol to clean it so now is better i think.

n guess wat today i was so high tat i thought of cute names for my fellow friends, see list below:
me - xiao ming
suxin -xiao xin
yenru - xiao yen
clara - xiao yin
fanny - xiao jin
xue bing - xiao xue
jane - xiao shi
sage - xiao ling
sunye - xiao ye
kevin - xiao jie
charlton - xiao xiong
jonaton - xiao sheng
xian yang - xiao yang

cool rite haha, nxt time i shld call everyone by tis names haha >< arhh slpy n tired, i dun like to go study. today had electronics, ship stab n mek.
all r uber boring.
esp the mek lesson, i jus dunno y the lesson seem to have a slping effect on the class. initially everyone was quite hyper, bt once the video on engines r being played, we jus cannt help bt feel slpy. clara n me, our eyes were slowly drooping down n finally we both fell aslp.
finally sch ended at 2 plus then we finally can go hme.

fanny n clara arh, tis 2 they r uber bo liao one. keep ka jiaoing me in class><. n today dun seem a lucky day for me nia, played dai di wit sun ye jonaton n xiang yang. of all the 5 to 6 rounds i win like only once><.

im tired, seriously nd to gt some slp soon bye

edited:
jus gt a small accident at hme, maid broke a big bowl n gt a big cut, ouch. the bleeding like tap like tat non stop one scary. lucky gt first aider at hme nia ME!!! haha im so nice still nd wash plates for her leh. my delicate hands man. first time do so many washing loh so many plates. some more mummy cook soup today. still nd help to wash the pot. gd lah like training like tat bah. now my hands super itchy dunno isit cos of the detergent T_T... i dunno wat else to say...y do things gt to go to such a extent. everyone jus seriously gt to cool down n talk things over. the thing(u noe wat) is important bt our friendship is also important, dun wan to break our friendship over these issues. life is like tis, things dun always happen the way we wan them to. at the end of the day, for anything tat happpens, we jus gt to sit down relax n solve the problems we face. everyone jus nd to be more understanding to one another n cooperate tgt.
lets jus see how it goes tmw....... morning went to church wit mum, then aft tat went to orchard walk walk. sian nt much sales going on, wanna buy some clothes also cannt, all so exp. orchard is nt the place for me.

hmm...dunno wat happen to my stomach, feel rly weird for some time le. everytime i eat something be it a small thing or big thing i also dun seem to have the appetite to eat. bt there r also times where i dun feel tis way. something is wrong wit me? nvm small thing lah i guess. my finger still hurts.
yah chinese new yr coming, gt angpaos le haha.
gonna go watch my zhong ji sanguo le...

P.S: 总觉得自己是个笨蛋加白痴>< ouch, finger pain. gt cut by the centrifugal pump today at workshop, hurts. is so ironical tat a small wound like mine hurts more than a large wound. bleed a little also T^T.

workshop was ok today, i did the dismantling n assembling of a small centrifugal pump all by myself leh, haha. actually had 2 pumps assigned to my grp bt then the 2 guys in my grp did the bigger one so i did the mini one myself. aiyo i forgt to take picture of the pump i did. nxt wk bah if i gt the chance.

fanny n suxin is evil again today. they steal my safety shoe n hide it haha. workshop also took a longer time today, finished exactly at 1pm i think. aft workshop went to open hse wit suxin. nth much to see. shared a candy floss wit suxin. bused hme aft tat at abt 2 plus to 3. im slpy wanna slp. Let me die-sad bt nice song(i jus like the lyrics, nth personal)

Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to midnight
Don't wake when lightning strikes
My heart for you is true
Let no one take that from you
Time is running tight
Can't change from wrong to right
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little
Just like how we used to be baby
Its time to say farewell now
No need to cry of feelings
Oh it's alright
I'll end the end of lies
Heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go
I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine
I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace
My sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can change my world from black to white
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little more
Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to midnight
Don't wake when lightning strikes
Heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go
I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine
I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace
My sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can get me straight to fight
Till the sky is burning
It's the end of time
Look ahead tomorrow
Long and winding road
Keep the faith of mine
Don't let it go
You're the only reason
That I'm growing cold
What would I do
Without you
I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine
I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace
My sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can make my world so bright
Life no longer ends here with you in my heart
In my heart...

sad, i think i didnt do well for the csw test today. didnt had enough time to read through the paper n prepare properly. phone ettique, i was quite confident at it bt now my confident is shattered T_T. my poor glass heart is broken by csw. i hate u csw, y mus u do tis to me...

today aft lunch was so sian cos csw test starts at 3pm. slack in the lib, then went to crash xue bing's autocad class, bt didnt stay long cos her class seems fully occupied. thus in the end aft gettin wat i nd frm xue bing, also left her class to go bac to lib to slack AGAIN!!! suxin n fanny they all so evil, bully me, steal my doraemons. kevin also, hanis also, lingzhen also, sunye also, suxin bf also. EVIL PPL><. esp kevin u big bully, lock my itouch...nvm everyone had fun can le, haha.

aft csw, pei kevin to wait for jane. see i so nice rite? haha. then we went to the sp open house for awhile then went hme aft tat.
oh n i think i noe the show call 2002 wit the song let me die. watch b4 last time, was one of my fav show. second day of sch is so sucky bt maybe a little fun? i dunno all mixed up. lao ye is damn evil, dun wanna give us our mek results. clara n fanny all r swearing n scolding. he said things like dun wan ppl to be disheartened etc is all nonsense, so unfair. well at least i gt bac my electronics paper, did quite well, 85 marks. mek lesson was so boring, 1st cannt gt bac results, 2nd the video on 4-stroke engine is boring. my eyes were half open throughout the video. finally the day ended aft the video. went to fc2 to find charlton n kevin, walked tgt to the mrt station. thks to the both of them for accompanying me to wait for my bus^^.
reached hme abt 4 plus, slpy-_-.
suddenly im hook onto some old songs. rly like 你最珍贵 n 星语心愿. the lyrics for 星语心愿 is so sad, like the last line of the song>>

就向流星许个心愿, 让你知道我爱你
sch is starting tmw n jus the thought of it makes me feel so sian. bt wat can i do holidays r over le mus go bac to study again. tis sem term test was nt very confident so for the sem exam gt to study real hard to score well. well jus tis few hrs times im gonna watch many movies n play lots of games. aft sch starts i nd to control myself to stay away frm the com as much as possible, worse come to worse i will study in sch if i have to. its so distracting place in front of me. i cannt be tempted-_-.
yesterday was quite a tiring day cos morning went church wit mum then abt 11 plus went to cineleisure for a lunch cum kbox treat by boss frm christmas hats sales. so many ppl there, first time i went into such a big room in kbox. bt didnt rly sang much, only abt 2 songs. when i reached there i was like so sian cos im like the only orchard seller there. the others r the santarinas n nel sellers. they rly high loh the nel sellers. they sang for like 3 hrs plus. lunch was chicken teriyaki bento, bt nv rly eat much. my drink also only had like 3 sips then nv drink le. gt my pay yeah bt earned rly little tis yr. oh well off to play games!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

a new year, a new start.
2009 was quite an exciting yr for me, learnt many new things n made some rly diff decisions. 2009 is also the yr where i turn 18 le, the yr i take a further step out of my protection shell put up by my parents. tis is gonna be a rly long post.

some flashback of 2009:
-valentine's day gifts for classmates (nv did tis kind of things b4)
-trying to adapt to yr 2 class (diff modules)
-making an effort to make more friends (seperated frm yr 1 friends)
-organising gatherings (nv had a chance to do so)
-going out often wit friends (a little more freedom frm parents)
-bday surprised by friends (nv had such a day in other bdays)
-a super fun class gathering (seldom having whole class present)
-gt a little courage to do some things (a little by little is gd enough)
-important decision made (can change my life)
-making christmas presents for friends (determination even when i dun feel like doing them)
-etc.

new yr resolutions for 2010:
-make an effort to study well
-gpa of nt below 3, abt 3.5
-nt be distracted easily
-be more courageous
-break free frm protective shell of parents
-making major decisions carefully
-most importantly keeping everyone ard me happy n have lots of fun^^

new yr resolutions had to be realistic, thus i had rly small bt diff goals set so tat they can be achieved bit by bit. i dunno how is life gonna be like for the future, so the only things we can do is to live our lifes to the fullest.

some quotes to remind me of life:
-Live life like you're going to die today, dream like your going to live forever.
-Life is full of hard choices, all you can do is choose a path and never look back.
-Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a gift, that's why they call it the present.
-In a world where you can be anything, be yourself
-Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, but do so with all your heart.
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